During my councelling the idea of taking things easy or slowing down has been mentioned, however, I don't appear or seem to be aware that I tend to rush around or do things in a fast pace. I became a bit more self aware this evening.
I decided to slow down a bit this evening, after which I appeared to become more aware of my physical state, and then became aware that I feel a bit like a car that has been driving at a fast pace or high speedy for a long time and it is time to slow down, possibly to give the engine a rest, or the engine and the car a rest.
The next thing after the rest is to find out why I have been doing that and why I haven't taken a break before.
I have just become a little bit emotional and it was almost as if I felt some tears somewhere. At the moment I feel a little bit as if there are some tears somewhere possibly. It might be tears for the hard times I have been through.
I need to go slow. I need to look after myself.
lots of love,