I have panic attacks for the last 20 yrs on and off. Last year was dreadful for me I lost my mum to brain cancer in May, I broke my wrist in September and my Nana ( mums mum) died in December. I also got married in April I wanted my mum to be a part of the celebration, she was.
Anyway I got though a few 1st anniversaries just about ok! The odd anxiety attack thrown in for good luck.
Then in April time I fell to bits. My tablets (citralopram) decided not to work so I was upped to 30mg which seemed to make me worse. So I was changed to propranolol in the morning and dosulepin 75mg at night.
Whilst I took all 3 I seemed ok.
I stopped taking citralopram off 10mg and have felt terrible ever since (about 5 weeks ago)
I am now anxious nearly all day, frightened of people coming to the house except my family, can just about nip to the local shops. I got scared this week that hayfever could some some significant harm to me, now I know that is irrational but I cannot stop it!
My husband keeps falling out with me and telling me to snap out of it, which I cannot do.
My sense of humour and play has disappeared and I feel like I am letting my children down.
Ps I'm very hard on myself.
Sorry for the very long blog and the spelling!