Morning everyone! I was reading blogs and especially about holidays and travelling anxiety! I would love a holiday but money and panics too much at mo.My shame and guilt is my parents are both very frail with multiple health issues and three times I have been called to the hospital to kiss them goodbye in past couple of years and by some miracle they both have been brought back from the brink ,however my poor mum is very sick and in hospital yet again and because of my claustraphobia I struggle to cope with the warren of corridors and the lifts! When she was last admitted last October I got lost and ended up in the bowels of the hospital totally panicked !!! Since then I have had bad relapse and on lots of medication for depression and anxiety yet again and just cannot visit her.I worry about it every day and never knowing if she will come out am so ashamed.I want to force myself to do it but just haven't I can't even send her message as she is deaf and almost totally blind!How do I get my head round this??????Especially as I nursed my terminally ill father-in-law till he passed away.I feel I am failing my parents big time.Much love to you all Penny xxxx
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