Saturday's Blog.

[Helpmebirmingham]

Hi all my fellow anxiety sufferers.

On Saturday I posted a blog as I was so low I wanted to end it all. I was given support on here that I found was helpful. I was in a such a place I felt hopeless and no where to go and the end was here.

After much persuasion, my partner contacted work and decided to take the Monday's off for the rest of this month. I have been really anxious and heightened GAD for the past couple of months. Previously my partner was taking Monday And Tuesday's off to support me and all of a sudden decided to go back full time without even telling me. It knocked me for six! Anxiety is horrible the way it runs and dictates your life.

I went to my GP yesterday. Not much interested to be honest. I asked for my BP to be taken and bloods to be done as I have been on meds a while and was concerned about liver, kidneys and cholesterol.

He also gave me a stronger sleeping tablet. Not sure of the name as I have not taken them as of yet. I know it was 10MG.

I looked into counselling and sourced it myself as the GP just said about long waiting lists etc. I have an initial appointment for next Tuesday. I contacted a couple of them and the other has got back to me know so have the initial appointments for Tuesday. It is a step to getting better I think.

What do you all think? I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support x

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I'm so glad you have put a post on I was worried about you. I think you are doing a brave thing in sourcing counselling and with some sleep things will improve. Don't ever give up hope... Things do get better no matter how ill you are. You won't feel like this forever although I know it prob feels like it right now {{{{{hugs}}}}}

[Helpmebirmingham in reply to Hidden]

Hi Eve.

I was really so low and really ready to do it. I didn't want to die. I just wanted a resolution to get on a road to recovery.

When you are alone and have no support it is devastating.

Thank you so much x

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I know I've been at that point too xx I don't have support at home but I had a fantastic gp who helped me through(before I found this site). Don't worry about having those feelings as long as you won't act on them. If the thoughts get too much ring Samaritans. Just remember its the depression making you feel like this and it will lift. Keep talking on here and in time you will see that light at the end if the tunnel and the good days will come back. Try the counselling and try to open up as much as posible. You are Not alone. Massive hugs eve x

[Helpmebirmingham in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Eve.

Your a really nice person x

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This is good news , I am really pleased things are starting to look up for you

Your GP , doesn't sound very helpful , I no the waiting list is long , I am on it , but he could have least offered to , instead of sounding like he was trying to put you of

Let us no how your appointment goes & keep talking on here , always people to understand

Love

whywhy

xxx

[Helpmebirmingham]

Hi Why.

I think I maybe should look into getting a new GP? My surgery is like a min I hospital. It has about 10 - 15 GP's and around 12000 patients. So it guess it is like a conveyor system. In and out as soon possible.

My biggest problem is the sleep factor. If I could conker that one. I am pretty sure life would improve significantly.

x

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I no a lot of GP'S are the same now , mine is

I am sure you will conker the sleep , it takes time & patience , but we are all here to help & listen , you will get there

xxx

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Hi,

well done in connecting with the docs and the councilling, I'm sure it will help.

Like you say the sleep is very important, as we dont get chance to recharge our batteries.

I just had two days of bad sleep and it wiped me out a bit, and made me more suceptable to panics too.

Indeed, I've just returned from the dentists, where I do have a problem anyway, and was stuck in the chair with some gluey stuff in like a mouthguard for taking an impression for a replacement tooth, lol, the bottom one was ok, and he pulled it out then came the top one and off went the panic, as I knew I was stuck till the gluey stuff went off.

So, I did my face accept float and let time pass, the last is always the hardest for me, but did it.

I felt really great afterwards, so I took the family as my son and wife were having a check up too, to get fish and chips, a rare treat these days, and its was LUUUVERLYY

hang in the, it does get easier and the councilling is helpfull.

all the best

Wishing you well

Bxxx

[Helpmebirmingham in reply to Hidden]

Dentist. That reminds me. I have not been in three years. I really should book and appointment there too!

Fish and chips...Yum. I haven't had chip shop in a long time. Today I have just lay on the sofa and watched day time TV etc.

I have not done that in a long time either.

I wish you and yours all the best also x