Here for a moan today I'm afraid lol.
Had a terrible day at work... probably the worst I've ever had come to think of it! Literally one thing after the other went wrong all day. And to top it off following a crappy day at work it was my turn to visit my nan (shes in a care centre at the moment before she moves into assisted living in a couple of weeks) and the first thing she said was how disappointed that she was as she thought my uncle was visiting this evening, not me. How lovely...
Really don't quite know how I feel about all of this... I know that deep down I want to scream and if anybody crosses me right now I think I might just snap... but at the same time I'm kind of numb which makes me think that all the anxiety is going to hit me at some point later in the week my CBT therapist says I need to learn to accept myself and to like myself but right now I can't even imagine feeling that way. I just can't seem to dig myself out of this, every time I start to I get knocked back down again... Starting to wonder whats the point, and am I ever going to feel like myself again?