I am 16, and for as long as i can remember i have had Emetophobia. it was different when i was younger as young children are always getting sick. But it has gotten a lot worse this year and i just want to be normal. No one likes being sick, but why am i so petrified of it? last winter i have become very aware of the dreaded noro virus going round. i am absolutely petrified of getting it. I am scared to go to sleep in case i wake up in the middle of the night with it and i would honestly rather die than have it. i havent had it yet (touch wood) and have not been physically sick since january 2009. Any fellow sufferers or advise givers on how to deal with this phobia?
I have been suffering from depression since last summer. i have lost motivation in everything, i even thought to myself "i cant be bothered to type all this out" before i started writing this. I just feel so useless and stupid all the time. Depression has taken over my life and ruined my education, teachers just assume i am lazy and refuse to work and do homework, but the truth is i just cant be bothered to do anything and just want to stay in bed all day. i am hardly ever happy, and when i am it is very short lived. i always feel guilty even if i havent done anything wrong and i get in these weird moods were i will pick arguments with people i really care about and end up pushing them away.
I also think i had a panic attack today, but only today noticed it today as a mild panic attack. i have had feelings like that before but today it just hit me that that's what it could be. i had an exam today at 2.00pm but the attack occured at around 12pm. i was not worried about the exam and this seemed to come on unexpectedly and for no reason. i was in a shop with my two friends when i started to feel something at the back of my throat, and i tried to ignore it. by the time we walked back to my house and got in the door (1 min walk) i felt very light headed, sick, and like i wasnt there, (overwhelmed.) i then became very hot and anything i drank made the lump worse. i tried to calm down and eat something and took my dose of Kalms pills, and then just tried to calm down, about 5/10 minutes later, i started to calm down. i think this lasted around 20 minutes but im not sure because i felt very flustered and overwhelmed. please- if anyone has any advise, i would be forever grateful. i have never told anyone all of this together and i just want to be how i used to be- happy.