Basically I'm unsure that if I have anxiety or not. I currently suffer from depression which I plan to go back onto medication for. I'm just not sure if it is anxiety or not and you really like your advice and opinions on whether it is or not, please.
Every time I'm out in public I just feel incredibly paranoid in that I feel like people are watching and judging me which ends up in be being very self-conscious to the point where I get it into my head that I'm even walking wrong (which makes me very aware of each step and is quite off-putting)! Talking to people is very difficult as I just feel generally uncomfortable and ill-at-ease because I feel like anyone I talk to is just silently judging me and this is very obvious to anyone who knows me because I can't really hold a conversation and am generally very awkward and even look uncomfortable. Another aspect of this is that I don't "feel" like I connect to people i.e. I know someone would be my best friend but I just don't feel the bond which just leaves me feeling detached and isolated.
When anything is planned I would initially possibly be excited about the prospect of it happening but this would usually quickly change as I over-thing and deconstruct the entire situation, looking for non-existing flaws. This has just taken the joy out of so many experiences and is a huge burden which has ruined a number of relationships in that I refuse to date someone due to all of the perceived "problems". I just can't help it!
There is more that I feel I should say about me for you to be the judge of but some of the physical manifestations would be that when I do feel more "anxious" or "panicky" than normal I would end up getting migraines which would then last for a number of others, I would feel really warm and itchy all over- as if I'm being jabbed by pins all over my body (head in particular) and I would become quite restless i.e. I can't sit still and would need to move and when trying to work I would end up fiddling with objects. I also suffer quite badly from an insomnia as at night I would start to panic more as I deconstruct things either from that day or just from my life in general.
What I would like to know from you guys is if you think that this is some form of anxiety and if I should seek out advise on this too? Thank you for bearing with this and for any advice/ opinions you may offer.