Well Saturday is here guys and my good friends is here for the day. I'm putting a brave face on things and trying my best to be like the old me, but deep down I'm struggling still. I'm not really feeling any better from the last two days. Still feeling edgy and agitated I'm trying not to show it, but not sure if I'm doing a good job. I'm trying to talk and have conversations, but it feels strained and I feel awkward which isn't me.
I'm really not looking forward to going out for this meal tonight. Being around all those people trying to convince them that I'm ok when all I want to be is on my own. Hopefully my mood will improve a little so I can actually enjoy tonight and not feel line crap.
Still feeling really emotional to. It's like I get a wave of emotion come out of nowhere and it really knocks me sideways. Nearly broke down while cooking the bacon sandwiches this morning. This is such a strange thing for me I'm rely not used to feeling like this.
Right I should really get back to entertaining my friend. Hope everyone is having a better Saturday than me so far.