To preface I'm safe, just very sad.
I really don't like myself I haven't for a while. I've attempted suicide once, and find it so hard to love myself. I'm a man who's cut, but it used it to dull the pain... I used to give myself black eyes, I hate eating because hate how I look.Now those scars are reminders that I was weak, that I cry too easily, that I'm not man enough for people. But I just want to make my friends and family happy. I'm constantly putting myself on a scale of, am I good enough.
If I keep crying so much I really won't have any friends left.. it's too hard for people to want to juggle that too... I'm stuck, I do hobbies fine but I just can't bring myself to smile when I'm not talking to people I care about...