Exhausted

[PenguinQueen44]

I am feeling tired all of the time.I go to work and my migraine comes back and I feel nauseas. This happened before when I was having a hard time with a different job and I was getting yelled at by clients alot.

In this job I am feeling done....I loved this work and then somebody snitched on me for swearing..I offended them, but no one can tell me what I said or when I said the swear word. I don't swear at work so I am frustrated.... I am wanting to make a stink about this. The complaint cost me a promotion and I feel like I am going nowhere at this job....my brain wants me to move on.

This job is a great opportunity, but my body wants me to be done. When I am stressed.... my body will make me feel sick. It is happening when I have to go to work. As soon as I am home...I feel better.

The money is good but this has been happening for a week now and it has not gotten better.

Taxes are this week and my brain is not handling the stress at all.

I am exhausted all the time. I have no energy to handle any stress....I am having suicidal thoughts again.

They are very prominent in my brain...

I am thinking of just parking on the train tracks and letting myself be killed that way or drugging myself and cutting it key points to bleed out quickly.

It is scary when I am in this mode.

My coping skills to stop me from doing something stupid are not working anymore....I am so scared that I will give in to my darkness.