Anxiety is ruling my life and no one understands.

[Ylenollrig]

I have anxiety disorder and a severe phobia of certain bugs. My anxiety has been on high lately and I'm so tired of living this way. Sometimes I feel very alone because my husband doesn't understand it and feels helpless because there is nothing he can do. I get so sad because I can't turn my mind off. I really just need someone to understand me.

[Justindazed]

I feel you. I’m currently dealing with sleep anxiety. I’ll fall asleep for thirty min. Then wake up with a panic attack scared I’m dying, confused, heart beating very quickly, in total terror. I’ll sit up for an hour then fall asleep and I happens again. It’s a cycle. Getting very tired of it.

[Ylenollrig in reply to Justindazed]

I heard a podcast the other day that said "as scary as it is, let your mind follow the story through to the end when you have terror. Even if it's scary, because your body panics because of the unknown. I haven't tried it yet, but I'll let ya know if it works.

[Ylenollrig in reply to Justindazed]

I heard a podcast the other day that said "as scary as it is, let your mind follow the story through to the end when you have terror. Even if it's scary, because your body panics because of the unknown. I haven't tried it yet, but I'll let ya know if it works.

[Delimano]

I understand how you feel because I feel the same. My husband ignores my problems, I am all alone and I'm waiting for my AD to become effective. Sorry for my English. My anxiety is strongest in the morning. Do you take any AD?

[Ylenollrig in reply to Delimano]

Yes, I do take AD and Anxiety meds as well. They donoretty well most of the time, but when life gets a little rough my anxiety rears it ugly head, especially if I see a big in my house. My therapist says it's a control issue and I'm working on that. Hopefully your AD kicks in soon and you will start to feel better!

[MayDay3]

I hear you and I understand. I feel the same way. Though my phobia includes all bugs and even pets. There is a person in my apartment building who never has a leash on his huge dog (which is illegal by the way, they are supposed to be on a leash in common areas) that charges at me all the time. My husband says he is embarrassed by my reaction to the dog charging at me and that I am overreacting.

Also, he is very unsupportive and does not try to understand my anxiety and OCD at all. Like if he drops my wet clothes on the floor after they have been washed, I need to rewash them because there is a bunch of hair and dirt stuck to them and when he sees me do that he says "this is despicable, you are disgusting".

His behavior in response to my anxiety and other issues is very disrespectful and triggering. I end up turning to eating my feelings or compulsive shopping or compulsively washing my hands and clothes.

I can't sleep at night because I can't turn my mind off either most days.

I hope me sharing my feelings and experience helps you feel less alone.

I am very lonely too and was looking for support groups desperately and I found this website just 2 days back and everyone here is so brave in sharing their experiences.

[Ylenollrig in reply to MayDay3]

I am so sorry that your husband calls you despicable! That's a no go for me! So disrespectful! It hard though, for people to understand it. I get that, but it's also hard being the person who has it. Most of the time I think they can't wrap their minds around it because they have never been afraid, or experienced a panic attack! Just remember what I try to tell myself. You have a disease, but YOU are not one. It's just part of who you are and if he can't accept that maybe you need to find someone who gets you!

[MayDay3]

Thanks so much! I am in my 40s and I am not sure I have it in me to leave him just yet. I am currently unemployed and on his insurance. I am working on taking a certification test soon so I can switch careers. Fingers crossed