I kinda don’t like the idea of posting really much of this because as the title says I don’t think I’ll change. To be honest I don’t think I deserve it either. A lot of us don’t deserve what we have good or bad. Just don’t know how much longer one can be automated for. That’s all I do really, no will for myself. No “good” mindset but that’s how I think now. I had peace but things must’ve changed. For anyone looking for that, I’d really recommend God, Christ. That’s helped me beyond words but I don’t think I’m allowing that anymore. Or something else. I don’t know what else to say besides nothing feels real. I don’t feel or think a point. I am at least stuck where I’m at for a little while. Whether I change my thoughts or not I’ve tried and somewhat worked but still have to do this stuff either way. Just why do I want to be in a place with so much pain and suffering where there is barely any comfort. Life is sad, but it’s how you think of it. And clearly I’m looking at the poor pictures of it. I am grateful for it all I at least try to say it if I don’t think it. I think I’m really getting closer to living a worse life in terms of what I do. I’m unsure of what I need since I’ve tried many different things, it’s not an overnight thing but it’s been months with in where have I changed? Ok you could say you don’t know the future and that’s right, but I’m really not trying to see it. I know that’s a disgraceful to God and even those around me. But it may hurt more to see someone just faking things and never improving. I don’t know how much they’d really try to help with how I know them. I don’t think it’s worth to ask so it’s been out of the question. Idk maybe it was better saying this here rather than in my notes or talking to an ai really 😂 wish everyone is better though ❤️
I really don’t think things’ll change... - Anxiety and Depre...
I really don’t think things’ll change for myself
Hi User315, We all need someone to talk with, to express our inner feelings in order
to cleanse our negative thoughts. As you are new here, I welcome you with open arms.
What I've learned in all my years of Anxiety & Agoraphobia is that if I don't care about
myself, no one else will. Right now, your posts consists of so much negativity that it's
like trying to climb a mountain and giving up each and every plateau you reach. And then
you slide down to hopelessness and give up. When we do this to ourselves, we stay in
a repeated cycle of defeat. Until we have a mind change for a more positive approach in
life, we go no where.
So many of us are like this. Not knowing why we can't achieve our goal. But...it takes change
and the anxious person is afraid of change. We tend to get comfortably uncomfortable with
the way things are and so we just go through the motions each day. Hopelessly and Helplessly
lost.
Whoever we are, we need to believe in something or someone. And it starts with believing
in yourself. Yes, everybody comes with a story but you are the writer and can change that
story from Chapter to Chapter.
I'm happy you are here with us User. May you learn from others who have gone through
this journey 
xx
Yea I know I’m really negative when I think about myself or in general. But if I don’t think of it I’m still not healing, it’s vaguely there. So idk what I can do since I do a lot to try to help myself. I’m just trying to live with it since I don’t know. As I don’t know a lot apparently 😂
thank you for your effort in the response
User, I so understand what you are saying. It is not easy to turn our negative thoughts
into more positive ones. It took time, a lot of time and research in finding methods
in bringing me to a more healing place in my mind. My go to was YouTube where I
learned about healing for the mind and body. It took for me finding Affirmation
Meditation to change my thought process. One was called a "brain washing" effect.
Affirmations fill our subconscious mind with only positive thoughts. While we sleep
the mind absorbs these positive sayings and words. In time, at least 30 days, our way
of thinking changes. Does it end there? Absolutely not. It must be a continued
life style change. I'm not here to push my journey on anyone but just to share what
gave me my life back.
May you find peace and contentment in your own way. I wish you well User.
You are a wonderful contributing member of our community. I'm glad you are here xx
What I don’t understand is that I’ve found peace, more than I could ever ask for because I was bad before then. But now, I’m worse in terms of overall being
User315
The old adage... only you can make the change... cliche but the truth.
It can take years to fully understand yourself and make changes. I wouldn't quit, I would keep on moving.
You confuse me. You continue to encourage people to take the path of God but in your own posts you speak about how this isn't working for you. Do you mind explaining? Personal question so no need if you don't want to obviously
You mention AI... not sure that's the fix. Using pre generated verbiage isn't going to help you much. This is a personal journey not a robotic one.
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I also confuse myself.. so that’s why I think I do it to myself. God has changed my life in really a ton of ways. I believe more for the positive than the negative. I believe that I’m perceiving some stuff wrong and that’s why I feel this way. I really am unsure I don’t know. As for ai, just talking to it 😂 when I tell you I’m weird I am
Well if you don't know, I don't know 🤣
Yeaa… I just know I’m blessed, I try to be a man of Christ. A role model, and I haven’t been able to do that on the inside recently.. I was on the inside when I wasn’t on the outside in the past 😂. It’s just that Gods love is so great that idc what the Bible says or any of it, that God loves you really. That’s what it’s about. Were his creation and his kids to be fair. Hard to get past in some minds but I don’t see how others cannot see there is not a God. I was agnostic at a point in my life so Christ is just specific for me. There’s evidence behind it too so why not I guess. Idk I think weird. I struggle with applying some stuff to myself I take it since I’m in this row boat..
Hey You can change that, It's inside you and always has been. Religion is NOT what that is, spirituality Is what You are and should ficus in. Choice is your blessing but you have to Know it not believe it. There is always an on ramp to Better feelings, times, people, experiences but again that's on YOU, not christ, Buddha, jehova none of those, it's always you and all the scriptures in all cultures will trek you that. So get into your own head, meditate self affirm and KNOW that you are good, kind, compassionate, and talented, but You have to do this, no one or thing outside your body or mind can do it for you or save you. Be strong, focused and determined. Cheers hope this helps.
Yea I don’t really like the use of religion, but more so what’s in religion. It’s not about that but more so, your spirit and relationship with God (at least my pov). I don’t give myself credit because I’m really no different from anyone and don’t want it to become excessive pride. I have this thing I do if I discredit myself I may work harder.. Idk yk
Oh and do you have a maybe a horse? They are awesome companions, I have 2 crazy loving dogs, a German Shephard and malinoi, they are well behaved not trained and fortunately will attack everyone with licks n hugs🤣 so hey you a good large dog bro you won't regret it.
Had a few pets across my life, not any recently. Never a dog or horse. Couldn’t have a horse where I’m at I think. I’m allergic to dogs and cats 😂 but as long as they’re the ones who don’t shed then theoretically should be good. Wanted one as a child but idk if I could even take care of one. I could see why one helps though. I’ll keep that in mind
Good stuff friend and mane at this stage in it life your not allergic, or metabolic take changes as we advance you know. Many things you had issues with years ago you may be tolerant of now. You get the idea though so go find your Happy my man.
I may have to.. Could take care of myself better as we all prolly 🤣. May it help if that’s what I end up doing
I appreciate the thoughts
Ah now I know who you were on before as - Linuxuser. I thought you said under your previous alias that you decided the site wasn't for you?
Looks like you changed your mind and returned under a new name instead. That's not an issue but its not really online etiquette, and maybe a bit dishonest?
Thanks so much for welcoming me into this community. So glad you offer people help and describe things they can do to get better. Stop being fixated on that other person and myself. We’re all tryin out here no room to judge anyone. I hope you’ve been well and can improve to the most
Ah that's definitely the type of speech LinuxUser used. So it is you after all? Please be honest.
You 'may not like it' but surely you agree its not fair to come back in another name and not mention it. Usually the ones who do that are previously banned members. If I recall correctly you were banned from this site?
I welcome genuine members, but you aren't. Neither do I ride roughshed over other people's feelings like you have. You need to learn that you are not the fount of all information and not to push your own religious dogma. We don't need that kind of attitude here and nor is it helpful.
You need to learn a bit of tact and sensitivity and not be a Right Person who never takes anyone else's feeling seriously. Listen and learn.
I think you need to learn as well because accusations are not it. I try to speak of what I feel may help someone, I haven’t seen you respond with any or much help. It’s not about us who the stuff helps for, it’s about who posted it. People should be open to minded to a lot when they’re the ones asking, we don’t know what they want to hear or don’t. I’m not trying to argue or create a negative environment so I wish this is done soon. I hope you can rid the grudge you have for whoever that was. It’s interesting to be called out to be someone having this be your first time. Sweet 😂. Hope you’re well homie
Yo I guess I bring to much truth and direction in this forum cuz they sure diets my post 😜🤣🤣🤣 it's ok though, I have to be mindful of decorum which is the popular word to support or augment alternative facts, shall we say. Yes when u go uncut to da gut it's a problem for most but I do understand that it's not for everyone so I will digress abs not out of Fear, but if redirect for this that offer this platform.
Yea I dunno 😂
I liked the way you said some things. That is true, well said. Thanks 👍
Hi thanks it'll be better when I pay more attention to my posting, using swipe sometimes distorts the masg, I will be more careful, thank youuuuu
🤣 no problem. Still understood really, maybe should relook over after composing thoughts though. Never bad idea
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