Hi. My depression probably started longer ago then I realize but i was self medicating and in denial. Though 9 to 12 months ago I knew there was something wrong because I began to fear the shower in my apartment. Part of the fear was I had an infected ulcer on the heel of my foot and I was afraid of that becoming worse and losing my leg. I kept the wound clean and changed the dressing regularly and the wound was healing. However, the bone was infected so I would still have to have surgery to remove some of the bone but they would not be taking my leg. The surgery went well but while being off that foot for a year caused other issues. Falls which csused back snd knee issues om the other foot.
Has anyone on here suffered from fear of showering ? Any advice?
Enormous Fear of Abandonment 
Fear of going back on antidepressants 
Fear of going broke
Hereditary fear
Fear of Throwing Up
