Slow motion life

[Dancelady63]

I don’t know why I feel so lost all the time. Days are going by and I can’t keep up with changes even though change is constant but I seem to be stuck in a time warp. Does anyone ever feel this way??

[Rufus07]

Sad, lost, hopeless, scared of my thoughts……everyday.

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Scared of myself and don’t want to wake up the next day.

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

Same here. I can’t wait to go to bed at night. Daytime always comes to fast. And when I wake up my first thought is I can’t wait to go to bed

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Do people know and see that you are depressed or can you hide it well? I wish I could put up a front but it’s next to impossible when coming in contact with people. I want to feel better .

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

I think we were made from the same mold! No, I can’t pretend and put on a fake happy face.

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Same here, people look at me like I am some kinda weirdo . I don’t even have the strength to see my daughter and grandson, they only live 30 minutes away. When I see her, she is sweet and makes me food etc. I just want her to take care of me and figure things out for me.

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

My daughter thinks I’m semi faking it and should just snap out of it. She doesn’t understand. She’s not mean….just kinda cold.

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Children don’t understand most of the time.

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

Could we private chat? If yes, I don’t know how to set that up. If no, that’s ok

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

people know and I feel like a burden cause they do know

[Dancelady63]

I feel the same way. Bed is my happy place and I had times where I didn’t out of bed for days. Not that I feel ok with it but it’s an escape. All my life I have just been existing .

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

I totally understand. Everything you said is me all the way.

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

it’s very exhausting isn’t it? I’m tired….tired all the time

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

It is, I am tired of being tired. Without even doing anything, I am tired. I cry every day. Now that I am older it has gotten worse. Honestly I pray to fall asleep and just not wake up, sorry to say this

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

I seem to get worse the older I get too. I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety for 30+ years. No one believes me about it getting worse the older I get. I too cry everyday….sob uncontrollably. I too sometimes pray I don’t wake up.

[Rufus07 in reply to Dancelady63]

I see my med management doctor every 3 to 4 months. Therapy is all he ever says. There is nothing else med wise I can do for you. Seems like I’ve tried them all. I’ve tried therapy for over 30 years to no avail. That’s why I won’t go. Nothing seems to help. I feel like this is just going to be my life forever.

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Click on my name and we can privately talk if you like . Hope it works.

[TailWags]

I think i am in a similar club. Only i am tired and cry a lot but afraid to.go to bed. Afraid what my brain might think if i dont force it to engage in games on my phone, tv, phone calls, etc. I have been dealing with drepession and anxiety for 35 years or so and it is geting worse. Just trying to endure the miserable feelings until i am so exhusted i just dont care anymore and feel.numb. i miss my childhood, when i had no responsibilities. My parens took care of me. Life was easy and happy. Now i am older. Alone. Dad is gone. Mom has dimentia. I dread the day mom is gone. I miss not being able to talk to her. Just stuck in this crappy reality. Waiting,vtrying to endure it until something changes. But i dont really have any.hope that it will. Just gets worse. Every once in a while i come on here to find other like me. Other people who re sad and feel awful nd nothing seems to.help. not sure i would know what to do if i lt ok.