So very tired

[StarlessNites]

In my 50s. How is it I can't seem to get anything right? Don't have much. What I have isn't worth having. Trapped by my choices in a world I wasn't intended for. Married and feel more alone than ever. Could never make it on my own financially. Had my job for 15 years make above minimum wage and still don't have money to take care of my pet. I get soooo tired of trying to stay afloat. I hate my situation now hate even more that I have no hope of good days ahead. Best days are behind me and they weren't all the great but I did get smiles and make memories. In this great big world not one person makes me a priority. Use me and then disregard. I suppose the sun will rise tomorrow.

[CLB1125]

hi Im sorry you are in such a rough situation. This community is my saving grace. I understand being in a place I didn’t intend to be. All I can say is for me, I can’t change my situation so Im trying to find ways to give myself inner peace. Some people journal or meditate. Some pray. Im still searching but coming here I have people who understand and truly care.

[StarlessNites in reply to CLB1125]

I can't change my situation either. I just want to be able to find a place to sit be quiet and leave chaos behind. the more I try to find it the more elusive it is. I come up for air and more things are just thrown at me

[CatsandCheese]

You found the right place! Welcome! I can relate and I'm sure there are more here. Keep coming back! Just reading the posts here is helpful.🫂

[Dolphin14]

StarlesNites

I'm sorry you are struggling.

You are still very young. Think about making yourself a priority, don't wait for someone else to do it.

Wishing you the best

🐬

[StarlessNites in reply to Dolphin14]

I don't feel young at all. I just want to outlive my cat and then reevaluate and if things are not better I'm out. I'm tired. Thank you for the wishes. The sun rose today and will tomorrow

[Dolphin14 in reply to StarlessNites]

I hope you can find peace and balance

[CLB1125]

StarlessNites, personal question , I won’t be offended if you don’t answer. Do you see a doctor for your depression? Do you take medication for it? It’s not a cure all, but it does help to make life more livable. Im still trying to find the right combination of meds to help me better cope. But I keep trying for my children.

[StarlessNites in reply to CLB1125]

I do. My antidepressants keep doubling and I've seeing a counselor. 2018 broke me and I don't know if there's coming back. Prior to 2018 I was on a low dose weaning myself off but here I am today. I'm a huge animal lover and my cat keeps me going.

[RS1974]

I'm sorry you're struggling now. I'm not sure what to say but keep going and I pray you find peace.

[Beavis2022]

Same with me -users are all over the , and it hurts and makes me feel like I'm nothing. Sounds like you need a supportive person. Maybe there's mental health groups or someone just to talk to, Keep writing here - it helps me with my problems.

[StarlessNites in reply to Beavis2022]

I hope your doing well. Users are excellent profilers. Please don't let them make you feel like you're nothing. That's not true. They find what's good and use it against you. I've never felt like I was or would ever be good enough. I find these people knowing the outcome just to prove I'm not worthy. On good days I'm strong. I'm seeing a therapist and it's helpful but I find it hard to totally open up. Maybe in time.