I don’t like myself today

[Dancelady63]

As I sit and reminisce about my past . I came to the Realisation that I can’t live with myself no more. My days are dull and I don’t have the slightest joy for holidays left. I am constantly balling my eyes out and asking myself what for. My bf has left for the day and said I am gonna be mad at you if I come back and still seeing you sitting with your rope on. Just needed to vent. Wishing everyone a happy Thanksgiving

[Littlecook]

Happy Thanksgiving, my friend. Youare never far from someone to say hello to , just do what you have just done we are all here for the same reason Support ,go on you can do this .

[Dancelady63 in reply to Littlecook]

It’s just been a rough road for me. Thank you for your support and kind words. Wishing you the best.

[Rufus07]

I’m sorry you are not well today. I can totally relate because this is how I feel pretty much everyday. All the way down to the robe. My s.o. Is so used to seeing me in my robe when he gets home from work, I don’t think it even phases him anymore. He’d be more surprised if I were dressed. I hope your day gets better and I wish you a happy thanksgiving 🙂

[Dancelady63 in reply to Rufus07]

Glad I am not alone in this and I hope you will feel better as well. Just can’t pick up myself doing stuff . And a happy Thanksgiving to you.

[Agora1]

Dearest Dancelady63, I just read your post and wanted to clarify what your bf said

he hopes he doesn't come home and see you sitting with your "rope" on. There is

a big difference dear within a "rope" and a "robe". I want to send you a big hug right

now. Wipe your tears, look around and see that you are safe. You are present in this

moment of time. Happiness must come from within. It takes reframing your thoughts

to once again bring a smile on your face. Staying in bed prolongs the sadness.

When was the last time you fixed your hair, put a smile on your face, got dressed and

looked in the mirror. I think you looking back at a woman who is still young and capable

in living a full life yet. I'm sorry for the passing of your mother. You are still in the grieving

process and I understand. I remember when my mother passed it took time to grieve the

loss.

Is it more than the passing of your mother that saddens you? You were brought into this

world for a reason not to be taken lightly. Something brought you to our doorstep as well.

May you one day see your worth and be grateful. Thanksgiving is a good day to start.

I care. xx

[Downinil in reply to Agora1]

Again, Agora hit the needed spot! We need to continually remind ourselves of this. Thanks Agora.

[Agora1 in reply to Downinil]

Thanks Downinil xx

[1Tess2 in reply to Agora1]

Love this ❤️

[CFC66]

Holidays are the hardest

[yankeesguy]

I am thankful that you're here and shared this with us, Dancelady63. The holidays can always be rough but you deserve food, health and the basics. That includes dressing up. If anything, you can do it to pass the time and see how it makes you feel. So little to lose, so much to gain in treating yourself at the very least like you would treat anyone else you see. You're not alone. We're here for you and your bf is clearly supportive, too. You may not like yourself but a lot of us like you.

[Yorkiemanpoter]

you are loved. You are not alone. And the way you’re feeling is normal. We deal with so many things in our life, every day, and for so long and after a while, it can all feel like a heavy weight always on our shoulders.

You came to a place where it’s safe to vent, and I’m glad you did. Forget the holidays and all that. Right now, the focus needs to be on you. What can you do today that will help you feel better, even if it’s just a tiny bit better? What might make you smile? Would it help to vent more? Reading? Writing? Talking to someone? Watching a movie?

I’m here if you want to chat.

[casablancalover14]

I am so sorry to hear that you are really down right now. I have those days too, when all I do is get up, go to work and come home. That is about the only joy I have going for me, my friends at work. But then I stop and think, I'm thankful for the small things in my life, like a roof over my head, a place to sleep, and food to eat. I'm trying to stay positive one step at a time. Keep in touch.🦝🦝

[Graveg4]

Happy Thanksgiving. You are not alone in your struggle. I too suffer from depression and anxiety. I speak life over you; in Yahshua name.

[majones_0608]

Have you tried prayer? If you don't like to do that then you could try meditation. Just play some calming music. For example, there are some relaxing meditation music videos on youtube that you could use. Then just close your eyes and clear your mind and just relax.

[CanYouHearMe]

you may not like you, but I like you! I can relate. I am not a fan of the holidays either.

It sounds like you bf is trying to help and encourage you to feel better. I know it is not the best way to approach the situation, but hopefully he means well with his comment. Most people have no clue how to handle loved ones in a depression.

[SsgCulldelight]

Ok ok o was just gettin ready to call you all kind of punks for trying to quit. Stand tall dammit, when u woke up this am you received another choice and that IS the blessing, to hell with the other shit, you can only control what's in YOUR realm, and it IS your realm, all the neg ish,talk, and other ish people do. YOU DON'T HAVE TO TOLERATE OR ENGAGE IN SHIT of you don't want to. That's the blessing of choice the creator gave you when your feet hit the floor this am. Life ain't easy especially with medical challenges but that's how it's designed, when you succeed at one thing another challenge is already on deck ya gotta take that swing my friend. Your a beautiful, compassionate, nervous, selfish kind weird individual and that is what makes you human. So what we got pain, maybe can't walk, have sex, or drink coffee, but they're a zillion other Lil shits we can do that we like, let's do those, and don't let Nobody control YOUR narrative, that YOUR job and Yours Alone. Peace and be HAPPY GIVING THANKS 😊

[Pitalife]

Holidays are even more added sadness n nervousness...hopebyou feel bwtter?boyfriend seems not to big on compassion...

[mauv]

Hi Dancelady63, I can relate. Depression is a very hard disease to live with. Remember we didn’t cause it, can’t control it and can’t cure it. God is the only one who can do that. He wants us to love ourselves in the disease as He loves us. He loves us unconditionally! No meds and no tx has worked for me for the last 4 yrs. It has been very hard but my faith has kept me going. I want to help others who suffer. We are here to help each other as we know how emotionally draining this disease is. I am praying for you.