Everyday I wake up and I hope it will be a good day and I will be able to watch how I say things to my family. I hope that I can wake up and feel like myself or be able to start to find who I am. I miss my go-getter mood and goal accomplish in high school. I miss being able to get along with my brothers and family but I guess that is long gone. I really need to be able to just work and focus on myself and not worry about taking care of others.