Anxiety, Depression, and Suicidal Oh My

[PenguinQueen44]

Hey all,I have been having trouble with everyday stress again.

My debit card was expiring and I needed to get my replacement one. It did not show up when the bank said it would. I called and they canceled it, but that canceled the one I had. For 2 days I did not have a debit card, which stressed me to much. I finally got it and then I stress ate.

At work I started a new task and my body was sore, but I liked the new work. I made a goof and I was so hard on myself.

I went back to my original task and then there were glitches in the computer system that was ruining my productivity. I got so frustrated. Also, I have had a hard time sleeping and I got scolded for humming loud at work, but it was the only way to keep myself awake.

Now my office is giving me a new supervisor, but I don't know who yet. I like the supervisor I have now and I am not excited about breaking in a new one.

Missing Halloween with my family is stressing me out, but I have to work.

My apartment complex just informed me yesterday that they are replacing the windows and sliding door. They said we could do it Wednesday or Thursday. I just had a panic attack. I had to make sure the furniture was moved and pick the best day. I need sleep but I have to wake up early to make sure they get started on time.

Every single day I just think it would be easier to end it.....I can't handle the everyday stress without constant panic.

I am freaking about paying taxes. I am freaking out about getting my registration taken care of. Even when I have a plan....my brain can't shut it off and worry more.

I just want my brain to shut up!!!!!

[Jemison_Schuyler]

That's a lot on your plate right now, and the way you're feeling is so valid. All of those things are stressful, and so you're having the appropriate emotional response to those situations. I'm not very good at working through my anxiety, so I unfortunately don't really have any advice, but I'm sending you lots of solidarity energy. Some things that do help me a little are attending free peer support groups through DBSA, doing breathing exercises through my mental health app, Finch, and honestly sometimes having a good cry. Just now, that you're doing an amazing job of identifying your feelings, allowing yourself to sit with those feelings, reaching out for support, etc. You're showing up for yourself, and that matters a lot. Sending you love!

[Melly4]

You don’t need to end it. Things suck right now but it won’t feel bad forever. Can you share if you have been able to reach out for help? A friend to talk with, a therapist or your primary MD? You do not need to power through this without help. You deserve better.