Over the past 5 years i have lost all that i held dear, and now losing my little dog Yonnie i am consumed with grief, it is the last straw.
The aloneness is breaking me and i want it all to end.
I cannot see anyway forward.
I now realise all my friends were fair weather friends and the total isolation is beyond anything I've ever experienced before.
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You have had huge losses.
Not comparing but I lost a sister and then lost my dog 6 months later.
My dog was my soul mate and I still cry over the loss.
I hope you looked into the rainbow bridge. I met someone on the site that ended out becoming one of my best friends. I'm in the USA and she is in Canada but we spent all day everyday supporting each other through our grief. I wouldn't have survived without her.
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l think it’s normal (but awful) when you lose something you love dearly. Don’t lose heart because your baby Yonnie wouldn’t want you to be like this. I don’t know if you believe in Jesus, but my faith got me through. God gives most when most is taken away. This is not the end, or how it will always be. In this world you can rely on change. Nothing, ever stays the same. There is a good reason for everything and the best is yet to come. If I can do it, you can. I was beyond grief and inconsolable. The tears flowed like a river. You will smile again, but give yourself time to heal. I will put you in my prayers and if you can, ask God to help you. Sometimes he brings us to this point so that we turn to him. Xxxxx
Yes i do have a faith but its somewhat faltered recently, but i pray for spiritual help.
I read somewhere that grief is the price we pay for love , it’s so hard when we lose a loved one, I think you have other dogs though so you have to be there for them now, we are all here for you 😘
Yes i have just one other dog but she is not my soulmate like Yonnie was, i love her but her name Diva suits her down to a T, she is not at all affectionate.
Aww, I’m sure you do love her though, and she needs you more now, I expect Diva is missing Yonnie too, she might become closer to you now 😘
Grace is similar in affection to Diva. But I was amazed at how much I started to bond with grace after Smokey was gone. It's just different with her but more subtle. Learning her love language is a whole new ballgame. I'm beyond grateful 🥲 for her now.
Always hereHello my friend Roddy. You are a sensitive human being. I am as well. We've been talking for some time now and I know you're feeling so low, with fear and anguish. You need to talk with a professional who can understand what you're going through and help you out of this hole with kindness, encouragement and ways to help you move forward. I have had such help in drastic times and it really saved my life. Hopefully I'm time you can adopt a new little friend who is in need of a forever home. You can do it in Yonnies memory. Please let me know how I can help you. I'm always here to help you. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
Aww thank you Marc, your words mean a lot, but today feeling so wretched i contacted my friend Claudine and she was here in minutes and consoled me.🐕❤️
That's great Roddy. Please stay safe and contact me anytime my friend. We all have to stick together.🙏🙏🙏
Yes i will Marc and thank you, its so good to know you.
Sincerest condolences for how painful this loss is. remember that when you gave yonnie a piece of your heart, she gave you a piece of hers in return. Every heartbeat 💓 is a reminder that her presence remains within you. Tune into your heartbeat when you're overwhelmed by your feelings. Feel it and envision yours and yonnies hearts beating as one. This is what I did to help after Smokey passed away 11 months ago.
I know how profound the pain is. Grace and Diva need both of us, respectively, even though I understand how much you want to isolate and retreat into the darkness of your grief. Keep posting and talking about your sweet girl. It's therapeutic to work through the grief. We're here to support you.
Dolphin sent me to the rainbow bridge website, too. It was a wonderful place of support and kindness. I'm glad you're using it. Try to eat something today even though you may not want to. Take care of yourself with compassion and kindness. Yonnie would want that for you 🫂💕🐕
thank you, and such wise and profound words, i do make myself eat even though i don't want to, i swear this is worse than losing a family member, 😢
It definitely is losing a family member! We care for our fur family no different than our human family, and a lot of the time, BETTER than our human counterparts. Our pets rely on us for everything. It's no wonder our bonds go so deep. Grief doesn't discriminate, nor does depression and anxiety.
Take care of yourself in the coming days. Prioritize your grief and embrace yonnies spirit. She isn't gone, you just can't see her. She's with you for eternity ♾️
xx
Anxiety is at an all time high
What is it to become vulnerable and is it worth it?
My heart is breaking 
I just need to let it out 😔 trigger warning ⚠️ 
ME + ALONE TIME = LOVE/HATE IT
