Depression Episode Again

[ladybyrd]

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in a while, but I do read your posts from time to time. Sometimes it doesn't matter how good things seem to be going in your life you can find yourself in the throws of a Depression Episode. That's were I find myself right now. If you look at my life from the outside you would never know I was struggling with it.

You learn over a period of years to manage it, but sometimes, it just sneaks up on you and your their in the depths of the dark pit again. I can look back and see the spiraling down but I thought I was managing it. Any insight would be a help?

[Sunrisetabby]

Good luck getting out of the darkness. I went to a yoga class for the first time in 5 years this morning. I am way too tight and couldn't do anything but the sunny personality of the instructor and the focus on the breath seemed like it should be good. When things turn bad, I think it is really important to focus on the essentials. How have you been sleeping? Have you been getting any exercise? When is the last time you laughed with friends? Have you been eating nutritious food that fuels you? Have you been avoiding activities that negatively impact your mental health, for me it's reading the news or doom scrolling, especially when done late at night or early in the morning. Things can unexpectedly turn dark, but my experience is that if I'm well rested and well fed the light is easier to find. Try to eat healthy, and exercise or just walk out side for a bit, and figure out how to improve your sleep. Best wishes.

[ladybyrd in reply to Sunrisetabby]

Thank you Sunrise tabby, you sure can't go wrong with those suggestions. I wish I could say it's my own ignorance about those things, then I would have an excuse 🙂. For me, I do those essential things, I really have no real reason to be in this state of mind. I think part of it is the heaviness of living life. There are things in life that's beyond our control sometimes and we have to find ways to live with those things. I just haven't found that way yet.

[blackcat64013]

Hi Ladybyrd,I am with you. I can be surprised that another MDE has occurred.

As the good doctor said, "you just missed the stop signs and so you crashed".

He and I are working out what those signs look like for me

e.g. no.1 sleeping = insomnia 2+ nights in a row

no. 2 trouble getting started in the morning = 3+ times in a week

The second thing is what I will do about each sign or symptom

e.g. 1. take a small dose of quetiapine

2. getting out of bed & going to kitchen for meds instead of having handy on bedside table

There might be other things but this will help me

[ladybyrd in reply to blackcat64013]

Thank you blackcat64013, if you have a chance read what I wrote to Sunrisetabby. You are so right these things are always a help.

[WastedDays]

I can relate. The worst part of depression for me is that it steps back and when you least realize it, it creeps back into your life. The hardest part is being vigilant when your feeling better.

[ladybyrd in reply to WastedDays]

Thank you WastefDays, it is the hardest part to be vigilant when your feeling better. I think, like you said, that the depression has creeped back in my life before I realized it. Your post has been a help, thanks for the insight.

[WastedDays in reply to ladybyrd]

You’re very welcome.

[Gramas]

I feel your pain. No matter what I do the depression always lurks in the background. Although medication helps to a point but it doesn’t take you all the way there. I guess the best I can offer is to think positively, be thankful for the blessings you do have. Why isn’t that enough though?

[ladybyrd in reply to Gramas]

Thank you Gramas, I think the depression makes it harder to thinking positively and thankful for the blessings we do have. If the mind is sick it's going to effect our thinking. I guess we have to remember when we're in depression it will pass as it always does and clear thinking is restored so we can think more on these things.

[Gramas in reply to ladybyrd]

I 100% agree with you. I try so hard to think positive but then I guess "reality" takes over and the depression is back. I'm with you, eager to know anything that will stop the unrelenting and perverseness of the depression.

[catsrock]

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. Have you tried tapping meditations? I just do the free ones at this site or on their app: thetappingsolution.com/

[WastedDays in reply to catsrock]

Thanks for sharing that!

[ladybyrd in reply to catsrock]

Thank you catsrock, I'll give the app a try.