Hi. I just joined the community and honestly, I both have nothing to say and so much to say that I don't even know where to begin. Right now, I guess I want to talk about my depression and anxiety.
I've had anxiety for most likely 8 years now but got diagnosed with GAD around 4 years ago. I did therapy back then and I healed and felt amazing for 2 years. A few months ago, I went to study abroad in Japan and I had a lot of fun for the first semester. I thought it was going to be an amazing experience that I can look back on with fondness and happiness. However, my second semester didn't go as planned. Slowly I sank into a state of anxiety and depression because of difficult classes and not having a support system that I could always go to. In June, the night before a midterm, I completely broke and had the worst depression and anxiety attack of my life that lasted for a week. I felt like I couldn't do anything and it would last forever. But then I got better. But it came back. And then I went home, withdrew from my study abroad semester, and took time to heal at home. But it came back again. And then it got better. And then it came back, went away, and came back again. It was less intense than usual because my medicine and the routine I had which included walking and eating better helped, but the past 2 days it's been horrible again. I've gradually stopped walking and eating better because of my laziness and the sluggishness I felt because of my depression. I'm getting therapy, but I feel like for the most part, I'm not getting much better.
Another thing that's been bothering me is whether I even have the right to call this depression. I have an amazing support system now which includes friends and family and I'm fortunate enough to not worry about abuse, money, or human connection. I feel so privileged and like I don't have the right to be depressed and anxious because of it.
I guess I'm here to ask: will my depression ever get better? Is there hope for me to go back to being "normal" again? Will I be able to live my life happily? Will I survive? Do I even have depression? Do I have the right to be depressed?
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It can and does get better, but depression is not ever far from the surface, certain things can trigger it but you have to learn how to manage it by not letting it become overwhelming. But you say you have a wonderful support system, consider yourself lucky because many of us have no one.
Hi, Depression and Anxiety are disorders which can occur together. One or the other is usually takes control of our life while the other lurks in the background.
Mental health issues can affect anybody at any time. There is nothing to feel guilty about.
As Secrets said, make the most of your support team to ease your struggles. 🐈⬛
Hi InMyHouse, I'm new to this group too. First of all I want to say hi. I would say you definitely have the right to be depressed. I've been able to struggle out of depression before, with the help of a therapist and support group. So I believe there is a lot of hope for you. You are bravely meeting episodes of depression head-on. Good for you! I believe your courage is going to help you a lot.
I'm glad you have support around you, a lot of people have to plunge in without it. That's where I'm at now. I think it's best to do what you can at each step and be proud of that. Reaching out to others and sharing in a safe community might help to see issues more objectively. Everything takes a lot of time. That's the hardest part in my opinion. You want to be well, shuck off the problems, but there are underlying issues from a long way back in life and they don't turn around right away. You cut down this monster bit by bit, that is my take.
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