Sadness, that's it.

[Shield_Of_Faith]

I had a massive fight with a family member of mine today and now I'm left feeling broken and sad.I already feel pathetic and like a nobody at times, this particular argument left me feeling like why do I exist? I don't matter after all. Idk.

I shouldn't question. But idk what to think right now. I always felt out of place in this world for sooooo many years. But why? What's my purpose. I'm just tired of fighting the anxiety, depression, loneliness, fear, its always fear that runs around in my mind 24/7. I'm just tired....

I'm just getting this out otherwise I'll fall apart. If I haven't already.

[Pastafox]

Hi don't fight it let it happen if fight it will fight back harder than you can at the moment is there anything that has made you feel differently in past its hard to see the light at the moment it will come God bless...

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Pastafox]

Thank you, I'll try. I appreciate your reply. God Bless you too!

[Hidden]

life is hard but you can live well these days, just stresses and problems don’t lessen. Try to hold on. Pray x

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Hidden]

I'm trying and I will always be praying. 🙏

[Baily]

Hi, my heart goes out to you, being highly sensitive you can feel you just dont fit in. Family fallouts are the pits because they leave you feeling a lot worse.YOU are feeling very vulnerable at the moment and can't cope with this.I have the same problem & it drains me.I turn to God & ask for his help & guidance, do try it. God Bless you. Xx

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Baily]

Yeah God has always gotten me this for.It is tough dealing with family drama but I'm praying things will resolve in time.

Thank you for your support! God Bless you too! 🙏

[SayNOtoPanic]

Hang in there. Sometimes relatives and friends are not empathetic or compassionate. Trigger, or say some really messed up crap. Don’t let it get to you where you put yourself down. Try to lift yourself in the positive light and the things that are good about you and focus on that. I know it’s hard and I hear ya. You’re not alone.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to SayNOtoPanic]

It's just my family member and I are super close and understand each other.But He said a bunch of things I couldn't believe I was hearing in our argument, I don't want to repeat what he said but even just words they cut really really deep.

I never would expect this person to ever say stuff to cross a line. It has my mind rattled. I'm numb right now. I'm honestly still very hurt of what stupid crap came out of his mouth. I'm just hoping we can iron this out soon. That's up to him.

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

I completely respect that it’s someone you’re close to and yes words can be very powerful and very nasty. And it does hurt, a lot. Just give it time with the feelings of what happened. Vent and share what you can or you’re comfortable with. Even if it’s to say hey I’m struggling today. Don’t address anything until you’ve sorted with your feelings and hurt so that there isn’t any more drama. Praying for you.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to SayNOtoPanic]

Thank you so much for your support! Me and my brother talked it out calmly few days later. It's a growing process, we hated things got super heated. But we are working through it. Slowly but surely. Thanks for understanding me! 🙂

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

🙏🏻you’re so welcome. Glad to hear that for you and your brother.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

I was never close to my siblings. But I am the baby in the family and my siblings are 20+ years older than me.

What made it difficult being the baby in the family is that I was the first one to have GAD and agoraphobia. Which my siblings didn't understand. And made me feel worse about it. To them I was being lazy and spoiled. Which hurt a lot at the time.

I, like, you didn't have many friends. I was raised like an only child. And my intelligence was past my peers. Because I grew up around adults my whole life. I was the oddball. Chatty Kathy. And then with anxiety...the black sheep. Eventually that all changed. My 2 sisters both have bipolar and my brother unfortunately passed away. Now I'm the "sane" 1 in the family. My eldest sister has apologized for treating me poorly years ago. The other one well she says she is sorry but I don't know if I can take her word for it. Time will tell.

But I found a way to help my anxiety thru an appointment called Dare then later a book by the same name by Barry McDonagh. It really helped me understand my anxiety and depression. I began my journey to overcoming this thing. It hasn't always been easy. Still learning. But it has improved somewhat.

Wishing you love and healing 🫂 ❤️

[Shield_Of_Faith]

Yeah we sound very similar. My anxiety ,agoraphobia, depression. I'm always feeling like the black sheep of the family.My sister's have husband's and kids.

My brother has a wife and a kid on the way.

I have anxiety and all my panic attack issues.

Everyone for the most part supports me.

Even though I'm not really as close with my sisters and they can be kinda distant and have toxic traits.

I'm sorry for you and your family and your brothers passing.

My anxiety makes me feel worthless then I have a family member who comes along and yells at me and say every horrible thing to make me feel like the most worthless thing in the world.. I'm numb and idk what to think anymore.