Bottled up feelings

[WanderlustCitydust]

Hi! I'm new here. I struggle with anxiety, depression and ptsd. Probably other things things to. I'm hoping for some type of support. I'm currently doing therapy, but I feel like I'm not being heard. I went through many therapist already and it doesn't feel like it's enough. Sessions get cut short all the time and I never get any good advice, definite diagnosis, or understanding of why I feel the way I do. I have a long list of struggles, family issues, trauma, and challenges everyday. I'm a single parent since the age of 16. I have no friends & I rarely speak to family. I stress about everything everyday nonstop. I'm sinking. I know ppl are always around for help, but no one is ever actually involved in helping. I feel alone, yet also struggle with trust. Do you feel similar & what do you do to help yourself??

[Agora1]

Welcome WangerlustCitydust to a caring community.

I do feel very similar to you. When I was going through Anxiety/Agoraphobia issues

no one believed me. Even doctors at that time would laugh and say "it's just anxiety".

I learned to hate that word "just" put in front of anxiety when they didn't have a clue as

to what it does to one's life.

I lost friends and trust in some family members. Multiple sessions of therapy for years.

Coming out of the sessions just as bad as when I walked in.

It was then I turned to YouTube. I searched and found anything and everything I was

looking for, both in answers as well as professional information.

I combined what I learned with my medication and therapy and added Meditation

and Breathing exercises. I made it through. Stay determined, Positive and keep coming

back. This forum can be a great learning experience from others who understand all

too well. xx

[WanderlustCitydust in reply to Agora1]

Thank you! =)I appreciate the reply and insightful comment.

Did your doctors ever listen?

I know I have some other issues, but it's difficult being heard.

I've tried all the above and some, but nothings working for me. I guess anxiety and depression are lifelong, I just didn't realize I had so many problems until now.

This seems like a great community. I'll stick around to see whats beneficial. Thanks again! Have a great day!

[Agora1 in reply to WanderlustCitydust]

Please give the forum some time. It's a great place

I've been here going on 9 years in hopes of passing my success forward.

We're here for each other xx

[TangledUpIn]

My therapy history is a lot like yours - I haven't really clicked with any of them and I never felt like I got the information and insight that I was seeking. My last therapist abruptly quit and I was set to see a new talk therapist when my friend suggested EMDR therapy. I don't know a lot about this kind of therapy, but I do know it can work on trauma quite successfully, however, my appointment isn't until 9/30! (Play Jepordy music here.😀) It seems like I always have to wait several months until I can see a new therapist because they are all booked up. I struggle with trust too and I am wary of sharing with a new therapist. All this is to say that you might check into EMDR therapy and see what it can do for you, especially around trauma. Good luck 👍

[WanderlustCitydust in reply to TangledUpIn]

Lol the jeopardy music!! I heard it playing straight away 😂Sorry to hear you have trouble connecting too. It really does suck!

I wish you well! Goodluck with the EMDR!

Please let us know how that goes =)

I've considered it, but truthfully I don't think that's something for me. I'd probably get frustrated. I hyper focus a lot.

Thank you for your comment =)

[Teaching]

Welcome to the community.

[WanderlustCitydust in reply to Teaching]

Thank you =) 🥰

[WanderlustCitydust]

Wow, sounds like me!I can definitely relate. I feel the exact same. I only started therapy last yr in October, but I've been through many therapist in that time period. I was thinking maybe I need to be more stern!? I haven't connected so much either, but I was hoping for the same. It's like talking to any other person, but I feel like it's better talking with a stranger at this point. I didn't get any useful tools, or something I feel I'm missing. Maybe it's just my expectations!?

Family, friends, environment etc can really effect a person. It's crazy! I'm broken too and extremely introvert. Trust is a hard one.

Now that I'm older, I understand better.

I'm sorry your experience is somewhat similar because I really do understand. I know it's rough path.

Thank you so much for your comment!

I'll check out the link. I appreciate you! =)

Sometimes I like to watch soft white underbelly on YouTube & see the raw stories of those who face /faced life difficulties. It shows me just how strong those individuals are and they're still fighting the good fight! <3

[Weatherwoman]

I've seen a few therapists over the years. Got some things from each one. Therapist are only part of the "equations," for help. I have been helped by therapy, medication, books, groups incl. this one, my own self, "talking to my cat," even to the walls (ha ha)! Meditation, diag. breathing, on & on & on. Point is don't expect too much from a therapist as they are only a part of the equation. I still struggle; but, one type of therapy has helped immensely with my OCD which was Exposure Therapy. Suggest that you try & find a therSig. Other, and other losses, plus the Pandemic, and some health issues increased my Anxiety, but I do have many "tools," to help! It takes a "Village," of many methods to help & heal. Hugs & Prayers

[Weatherwoman in reply to Weatherwoman]

Ops --somehow part of my last sentences got mixed up so what I meant to say was: I suggest that you find a therapist (not Sig. Other, tho. that might help)! Suggest that you find a therapist that will specialize in whatever issue, or symptoms you are dealing with. A therapist who specializes in the Anxiety Disorders, or one who deals with Mood Disorders, or a combination. I have had increased Anxiety in recent years after losing my Sig. Other of 27 years --went to a Grief Counselor that helped. Have had losses, and health issues --It's a Struggle.

[WanderlustCitydust in reply to Weatherwoman]

Hi! =)I hope you're having a great day!

Thank you for taking your time to comment, I appreciate you!

You are right! Therapist is apart of the tool to help, and I guess I'm expecting to be fixed =/ and that's not how this works. I'm beginning to realize this.

I've used all the same methods of help and some. I have an ESA and been to group discussions, but my anxiety gets the best of me. For me, life itself can be

overwhelmingly difficult. I struggle.

Hopefully I find something good, but for now this page is pretty great!

I'm sorry to hear of your loss & struggles. Hugs & prayers to you! I wish you a blessed everyday. 💕

[Weatherwoman in reply to WanderlustCitydust]

Thank you for your kind words. Know exactly what you mean when you said that sometimes your anxiety gets the best of you --me, too! We can have All the tools, and knowledge, but True -life itself can be overwhelming, at times. Good times don't last, but neither do bad times. We all have our ups & downs --people without mental health issues have struggles, too, in their lives --comes with being human --it's just "easier" without a mental health issue on top of what life can throw at you.