Vulnerable. Overthinking. Nauseous

[Against_the_current]

My grandparents called and i finally came out as a master's degree holder. To dad too. I didn't tell them about the shop interview tho. I asked them if i hypothetically if i have an option to work in a shop, whether to take it, they said "lol but you have two degrees, if they give you 2k then you can accept". So I'm thinking of calling and saying i can't make it and going to uni to take a document i graduated (my diploma will be ready next year).

I have some food from mom, from monday but even then it wasn't nice and i don't have a microwave and i was nauseous. Now i don't want to waste it because it's food and it's from mom and she putted effort and money but i also shouldn't risk to get food poisoning.

I slept this week and couldn't catch the university inspector working time to issue me a document i have graduated. Tbh idk if i need it. I rushed to the university but the inspector was already out. That means i have to take this document next week which means i can't go to the interview.

Even if I go to the interview, i have to go home either on Sunday night when mom's drunk or monday morning just before the interview. My head hurts.

My grandparents were giving me money and asked if i could become a therapist. I said i need courses, they asked about the course they were giving me money for, i said i dropped out because my leg. (Aside university being on the same time, being overwhelmed, city roads being repaired making travelling ages, traveling to my ex then and the drama with him... I haven't even mentioned my mental health....and i would need more to be a consultant. My family thinks i can just be a therapist and their therapist. And everyone's therapist. They see some serial killer on the TV and ask me. Like i don't even know what's going on with my own mental health 😭). My head hurts so much and im so nauseous...might be the mold or the AC as well...

I can't make a decision. I don't know what to do with going home, with the interview, with the document for having graduated master's degree. And idk what to do with the food from mom. I don't want to waste it but if i eat it, i might poison myself and i feel bad when im eating something else. I feel so vulnerable

[CLB1125]

my dear heart please don’t eat anything that might be bad. Your momma wouldn’t want you to get sick. I don’t like to waste either but I would never want anyone to eat anything bad. Just yesterday I was cracking eggs in a bowl for scrambled eggs. I should have cracked them in a little bowl before adding them to the rest but I cracked one in the whole bowl of eggs that was bad. So I had to throw away a dozen eggs.

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you so much. I felt so bad. You really helped me

[CLB1125 in reply to Against_the_current]

You’re very welcome ❤️