Home isn't a safe place neither. Mom made a scandal out of thin air

[Against_the_current]

Especially when sis is gone i feel so trapped, i have nobody to turn to. I really worry for when she goes to college. So I went to sleep at 9pm to avoid further confrontation and now wake up st 5am and she wakes up too. I wanted to share with you earlier. Okay so i was really sleepy, last night i woke up at 2am and i had my walk before she goes drunk and nasty and before she falls asleep. Got home, took a shower, she told me to pluck the holes in sinks so no cockroaches get it. I started with the kitchen sink and she was filling her bottle. I didn't look at her, i just plucked the holes and went to read a book. She came and started "if you let me live my life, i will let you leave yours. You're walking around the block till 5am" when i come fast - stay out, you're forgetting how to walk, your legs will mutate, i didn't even knew she had a problem if i was staying outside till she falls asleep. I told her i don't know what she's talking about, im just picking a book. She continued "the smell. The smell kept her awake all night." I said "when did that happen? Yesterday i just woke up at 2am and just couldn't sleep". She said "the day before yesterday" making me a scandal for two days ago?! She said "don't pretend to be a saint and holy water untouched. You complained like a All-suffering Genovese. I told you it was hot and i made myself a cvik (childhood cooling drink with vinegar, garlic and another smelly things. Even though she did drink wine). I was walking outside to find a tourist agency for our holiday but no holiday, we'll stay home and just lay on the bed -what we can do best"(im sure she was pointing at me but i was on the other side pretending to be asleep. I didn't want that holiday. She did. Why is she punishing me? I did nothing, had a walk, got a shower and picked a book and she started "what smell? Making drama. All-suffering Genovese. Saint holy water untouched. I'm a human too. Do i say something about you having a walk? It was cvik. No holiday for you. Lay in bed, that's what you do best. Drama. You're making drama." The thing is she's making drama. I hopelessly need help but sis is outside the house and doesn't pay attention. Dad doesn't care, he would say "find a job and move out" but the jobs i have are in university city. I'm too weak to go there and work full time. I still can't sleep normally. I'm still nauseous. What should i do?

[blackcat64013]

Hi,I am sorry that home 🏡 isn't the safe place it should be.

You will not be able to change your parents.

You can only change how you feel about this situation yourself.

To stay objective, consider the risk to your health & well-being versus the benefits of staying.

The only option may be to look for a rental, either on your own or as shared property.

Does your country have an organisation that supports young people under 25?

What ever you decide, make sure you are going to be looking after number one, you. 🐈‍⬛

[Against_the_current in reply to blackcat64013]

Thanks. I'm scared that by the time i can breathe to seek help, i would be over 25. I will die here

[SoporRose]

AtC,

I’m sorry; I couldn’t follow a lot of what you wrote, so I’m not sure how to respond. I hope you can find a way to co-exist with your mom soon.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

See how bad i am

[SoporRose]

Here's the contact link for ACOA:

adultchildren.org/meeting-s...

Note that "We have in-person, online and telephone meetings available. Many meetings in the in-person listing are also now online or telephone, so you might find them on more than one list." This might make it easier for you to start getting support from people who understand through what you are going.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thanks but it doesn't allow me to register and here are none

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Don't give up. Try

adultchildren.org/contact/

or

310-534-1815

[Against_the_current]

I tried