My depression has been spiraling thoughts all night last night, today, and tonight. I don’t even know if that made sense but it’s been over 24 hrs now with the thoughts getting deeper and deeper. I am feeling unloved and unworthy of anyone loving and caring about me. I know these are negative thoughts that are not true things but they feel real and true right now. These thoughts have started because my fiancé doesn’t want to do the “thing” that makes us a couple and I’m starting to find myself pushing further away from him. He cares for me, kisses me, says “I Love You”, and all the other things except the actual “thing”. I feel like he’s just leading me on and that he will up and leave me one day because of all the crap that I’ve put him through with my ever changing medical needs. I’m 25 and will likely be having back and/or head surgery in the coming months. He says he’s fine dealing with it and he just wants to get me taken care of but I know it’s got to be weighing him down. He says his man parts don’t work anymore to do the “thing” but again my thoughts spiral and tell me that he’s afraid to touch me and make my back worse than it is. I’m tired of the spiraling thoughts and my medical condition has not helped one bit with them.
Spiraling down: My depression has been... - Anxiety and Depre...
Spiraling down
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Have you asked him why he doesn't do what you would like him do? If not, that is where to begin.
He says his “stuff” don’t work. If it really don’t then I’m sure it’s stress causing it not to. I just don’t know how to help him because he won’t open up to me because he has never been taught how to put his feelings into words. He much rather bottle it up and deal with it himself. So I’m trying to be patient and let him deal with it, but it’s been months since we’ve done the “thing” and he’s tired of me asking him if we can.
I can feel how you are frustrated by his actions. I would feel rejected and tend to think the worst about my relationship with him. This creates negative thinking, and that drains us faster than anything. For me I reach a "rock bottom" and then decide to change MY behavior. I get interested in other things and quit thinking about "him". I do my own thing. He might get interested in you again if you life contently with yourself.Be an example for him. He might startsharing with you again.You need to change first so that he will not have you as an excuse. I don't mean to quit paying him attention, in fact treat him as a friend, but don't get hung up in his negativity. Good Luck!!!