Got worse. Ghosts 2

[Against_the_current]

So i ended up so crazy that i asked a psychic about what's going on waiting for some relief and he said he has another girl. Now om feeling worse. Plus feeling worse o gave money. I couldn't control myself. I texted at 3am, he saw them and left me on seen, and the conversation was good, ot was pretty spicy and i can't believe he left that on seen. Now it's 6am. I can't. I feel bad i lost some money especially with my situation. I feel bad it made me feel worse. He has given me doubts but if i ask, im breaking down everything and if he confirms, my final exam is doomed. I just needed someone to talk to. Here it's lonely and im anxious. I basically have no family and friends. I tried to reach out to him, felt bad, paid for attention and felt worse. I need 24/7 psychologist. Im not okay since 4 years

[litethatnevergoesout]

I’m free but I’m not psychic

[Against_the_current in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Better

[SoporRose]

AtC,

I can tell how distraught you are by how incoherent your writing is. This guy is not going to save you. The only way to get 24/7 care is in a mental health care facility. You’ve repeatedly said that isn’t an option. I don’t know what will help you, but it won’t be this guy. If you choose to stay in the relationship, you will be choosing to mess your mind and your life up even more. Please don’t make that choice. No one needs to be psychic to see he won’t do right by you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Here in a mental health facility, they won't give me therapy and i can take my pills on my own. Here mental facilities are used for people who are "danger to themselves and others in a physical way". It's something like jail

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I remember you’ve said so, but I think if you hold on to the idea that you need round-the-clock care and therapy, you may never find any help at all. I understand that you don’t see hospitals as an option; what kinds of less-than-24/7 care would you be willing to pursue? Please don’t give up. Please keep looking.

[2Scared]

I'm only a year old than you and trust me I went through the same thing. I was talking to "psychics" and "tarot readers", begging for any sign he would come back to me. I lost 15lbs from not eating and could see my ribs. I didn't shower, didn't leave my bed, and sobbed every day for 2 months straight. I tried going back to him just for him to throw me away again. That was 3 years ago. I've been through two other relationships since then. The last one cheated on my idk how many times and I stayed until he broke up with me cause I was so scared of being alone. I'm working on things with someone now (mentioned in my other posts) but it just all feels like a horrible mess where I let these dudes convince me it's all my fault for acting crazy or getting angry when they're the ones hurting me. It's not you trust me! Yes, there are things everyone can work on, but you do not deserve abandonment. I know it might seem like he is the only one for you and you'll never find anyone else like him. Which is a good thing, don't find someone else like him. Find someone better, someone who will call you every day, someone who gets excited to be next to you, someone who gets happy just knowing you exist, someone to hold you when you cry, someone to reassure you no matter what. I don't know when I'll find that person for me. Maybe they don't exist or maybe we just haven't found them yet. Dating at our age sucks, but we'll get through it. Women are tough 🥰