It's getting too much

[2Scared]

Idk what to do, I think I need to be back on meds. I've been spiraling the past couple of days. I was so happy this weekend and I've been so angry the past couple of days. I'm so mad at the separation I have to take from my "partner". I don't wanna be mad at him, but the anger just seems to get worse and worse. I'm so beyond pissed that it has to be like this instead of just resolving stuff. When I spiral I can feel all the energy and happiness drain out of me. The anger and sadness feel like it's drowning me. I feel so alone I just want someone to hold me. What do I do? All I wanna do is sleep the thought of going to work is making me beyond pissed, but I can't afford to miss days this month. Any advice would be appreciated.

P.S: If anyone has experience taking mood stabilizers can you share a little of what that's like if you dont mind sharing.

[lovemydoggy]

If you think you need meds there’s a good chance you do. Are you seeing a therapist? Idk know your diagnosis, but if it’s bipolar meds definitely. I say that bc I have bipolar disorder.

[2Scared in reply to lovemydoggy]

I recently talked to my therapist about having BPD so now I am going to get reassessed by the psychiatrist. I'm supposed to be taking SSRI's and anti-psychotics. I haven't taken them in over 2 years because it killed my libido and made all my emotions dull. I think I'm going to ask about mood stabilizers (I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be on them). I just hate the going up and down every other day or sometimes every other hour

[lovemydoggy in reply to 2Scared]

Antidepressants often kill libido. There are some that don’t. There’s Wellbutrin. There are lots of antipsychotics to try. They help stabilize mood. Then there’s the anti seizures like Lamictal or Depakote. Lithium is the tried and true med for BP. All this to say there are a lot of options, different dosage, etc. I’d definitely discuss possible BP. Hang in there. There’s nothing constant but change.

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