I'm 58 1/2 and the last nine months or so have had me obsessing about the past or worrying about the future. It's been very hard to find the moment, let alone stay in it.
I'm wishing that in the past I had made and retained more friends, and also traveled more. I've had some great friends and great experiences, but they are too few and way in the past. And I don't feel like anyone or anything will ever be that good again.
While I'm grateful that I'm in good health and the things that are "wrong" with me are relatively minor, I know it's all down hill from here in that regard.
Increasingly I feel less relevant at work as everyone around me is younger and technology (AI in particular) keeps barreling on.
While I used to look forward to retirement, now it just scares me. How will I form a support group when I move (I will move to be near the ocean)? It was hard making connections and friends in my 20s and 30s; now it seems practically impossible.
Long post. If you can relate, please share your thoughts. Thx.