Hello, I'm new here :3

[ajelnutt]

Hi everyone, I'm new here and um... I really don't know what to post. Well, I've never went to therapist yet and of course I'm not diagnosed with anything, but right now I'm at the point where I feel like I need help. I feel like I have no one to talk to and that's why I'm here so hopefully I can make a good connection with everyone Not trying to self diagnose but I think I have a really bad social anxiety because I can't bring myself to talk to people, I even scared of talking to my own classmates, seniors, or lecturers and it really bothers me I'm scared to go anywhere alone, I even scared of walking from parking lot to class alone And because all of these issues, I've never joined any organization in my campus, I've never joined any competition, every day I went to class then go back home immediately while all my friends have other beneficial things to do.

I'm sorry for my bad English ://

[blackcat64013]

Hi Ajelnutt,Thank you for your post and welcome to your forum.

You will find people with lived experiences of anxiety and depression etc. We are willing to share our experiences and tips for living well.

I think that you are eligible to make use of the free student assistance program (SAP) at your school/university.

By making contact you will receive confidential advice about all the problem areas of your life mentioned in your post.

The SAP is a much better way of coping than going it alone.

In the meantime take the support 🫂 and encouragement we offer 🐈‍⬛

[ajelnutt in reply to blackcat64013]

Thank you for your description and suggestion <3 But well, SAP at my uni (almost in my whole country) suck But here in this forum I feel less alone already

[The_Butterfly]

hi! I think I know how you might feel. I’m in my 40s, but I remember being at school watching everyone else live their lives. I wondered what was wrong with me. I think my strict parents caused me to think there’s only one right way to live. I think they taught me that the world is a dangerous place that I was incapable of handling. They acted like I was naive and gullible— a problem and inconvenience they had to deal with. So when I was on my own, I hid. Everything seemed dangerous. Also, I didn’t want to waste anyone’s time asking for help or connection because I felt horrible about how much I was a waste of my parent’s time. I felt horrible when I asked for connection with my mom. So at school, alone by myself for the first time, I wanted to feel independent and yet felt unable to do it.

Is it like that for you too?

[ajelnutt in reply to The_Butterfly]

Hello! I'm so sorry to hear that, that must be so horrible But I don't think we sit on the same table here. My parents, though they're not the best, they're not the strict type of parents. I don't think they're the one causing me to feel this way. I haven't figured out yet why I feel this way because as far as I remember, I've been like this since I was a kid. It wasn't really bother me at that time, but now that internship program and job only want people with experiences, achievement, and organizational experience, these issues start stressing me out