Realization

[Peacefully_]

Today is the day I’ve admitted to myself that I am struggling with depression! My birthday is on the 26th of this month. I feel downer than I’ve ever been.. Normally I will tell myself I am fine. Lately it’s been harder to maintain that “image”. I have to tell myself in the mornings; I have to keep fighting! I feel alone and empty most days. I’ve felt like this all my life. This past couple days just been harder..

[peacefulandcalm]

hi peacefully, love your name here and also, is that a koala bear? love those.... my bday was yesterday, I got very down, I think bdays bring this up....

I relate to all you wrote in your post.

do you have a support system? therapist? I get depressed, these are just two things that help....

You will get through your bday, maybe feel better after....do nice things for yourself if you can....<3

[Peacefully_ in reply to peacefulandcalm]

Hahah yes a koala bear… I love them as well! Happy belated birthday!

I actually never EVER spoken about my situation before. Nor have I ever acknowledged it. So no I don’t attend therapy or have a support system (at the moment ). I got on google and the universe led me here!

Thank you for your kind words…

[cashew78]

Hello. Happy Birthday. Mine's in a week; always @#$& complicated, but this year I got myself some ice cream and time with my kitten. A birthday present for you is an idea that occurs to me which may help; I think it may have actually helped me many birthdays ago, but I give it freely to you if you'd like to consider it.

Don't fight depression.

Navigate it.

You pick a fight with something or someone, you win some, you lose some; you feel worse off either way because you're bruised and you're bitter over the pain. It sucks.

If you navigate it, you only take wrong turns, get lost, and then have to refer to a map to get back. You might be frustrated by the small loss of time, but you always get back on track, learn where the construction is, and know where the roads get bad... but you don't lose. You don't have to waste time and energy getting ready for another damned fight sooner or later. You just drive.

Good luck 😉

[Peacefully_ in reply to cashew78]

Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate that. Happy early birthday to you as well.

Good luck on your journey as well 🙂

[mizzou7016]

Sorry you feel that way.....Sometimes we just have to survive one day to get to the next 1