Overwhelmed, etc

[darkthoughts504]

Hello all, I am extremely agitated, aggravated, etc. I can't find an ideal job near me, my neighbor is annoying that's why I am moving next month. Also, my dad is in hospice care and my mom had a stroke recently. Then, I can not find a descent place that is priced reasonably most want u to 75-100 for application fee and a bogus admins fee 150-300, wow I am sick of slumlords and scammers then some expect u to have a high credit score for a raggedy home. I have not been sleeping much and have not been feeling well. My b day is May 7th and I am not even excited about it anymore and have been thinking about suicide daily. I am worn out the neighbor smoke cigs back to back in her place(townhouse) and the scent come through my walls, hate itttt, so annoying she used to play loud music as well. Stressed out please pray for me do not want to snap or lose my sanity.

[Shysteve]

Good morning and wow you definitely have your plate full, please feel free to message if you need to rant/ vent etc,best wishes Steve,oh and welcome to this amazing site

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

Hi, I have been on here awhile. And my plate is packed, thank uuuu. Always something

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

Well I was always told it's only the strongest get tested to breaking point,you must be a strong person as you've made the step on to this amazing site,since I've joined it's helped me feel slightly less alone in the world especially as there are other people fighting the same or similar battles with no judgement or quick fixes,just a sympathetic ear,best wishes

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

Tired of the burdens and same for u

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

Yeah definitely can drag you down,I'm currently in the middle of some things that are affecting my day to day life ,things been building up for a while now and see to have raised it head around 4-5 myhs ago

[Shysteve]

Must apologise I said good morning,I've just realised your in the us ,so I take it must be good evening sorry

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

No, It is 557 am here

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

Oh wow sorry if I woke you,it's 11 am here

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

I was up i just posted my posts lol

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

DOH ha ha ,sorry my brain is still waiting to get out of bed iven if my body has already

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

It's ok and i know how that is

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

Quite scary as up untill December I was a precision engineer and have been since leaving school/college,this was my life and my calling (or so I thought) untill I started having my issues and managed to loose my job of 17 yes then moved to another role(still in engineering) and after 10 weeks of that it became apparent that my issues were Far greater than I'd even thought ,this in turn caused me to loose this job too and have been unable to work since

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Shysteve]

I am sorry to hear that and my issues have cause problems for me as well. I am not on meds currently I try to fight whatever on my own but it has worn me out. Some ppl do not understand what we go through to stay sane and alive

[Shysteve in reply to darkthoughts504]

To be honest I don't think people are aware of how much stress it causes and how much dignity it feels you loose when people don't/can't or won't understand what we're going through at least people here are going through the same(may not be identical)but on most part get the points we make, that's what makes me feel slightly more human again, best wishes

[Existing]

You do have a lot on your plate. I'm not under those constant stressors anymore, thank God, but I'm not feeling ok about anything right now. I can relate to much of what you say, but unfortunately for me this time, its only me I'm having problems with. I too am a renter, and would not want to be dealing the nonsense you're describing right now. Its so true, and I feel for you. Hang in.

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Existing]

I am in the same boat and it is getting worse. I can not wait to move before I get in trouble can't stand inconsiderate neighbors/ppl.

[sunshinefan]

I am thinking of you. You do have a lot on your plate. It is so hard when everything happens at once. I feel for you. Feel free to message me if you want to chat. We live in a condo and the noises that come through are so annoying. I wish you luck moving.

[darkthoughts504 in reply to sunshinefan]

thank u i appreciate that

[Existing]

Give yourself something to feel good about😄

Here's to those who need a little encouragement when you feel powerless and overwhelmed😁

[darkthoughts504 in reply to Existing]

thanks