I can't adult. I can't sleep. I can't recover. I always wake up nauseous.I want dad. I want someone. It's so lonely at 20. And getting worse

[Against_the_current]

Whatever i do i always wake up at 2am nauseous. I suffer with nausea since i was born. Dad really helped because he's a doctor but now he left. Mom's an option because i can sleep at home without feeling sick but she's not an option at the same time because she's drinking and having her own mental illness and makes me feel worse. I need to adult but im just alone and scared and nauseous at night and need dad or someone to hug me. I'm a big baby, i hate it, i need someone. But i have to adult. The option is getting a boyfriend but everyone i text with just wants one thing and leaves when they see i want to see if i can rely on them. I can't even function, i can't sleep or eat normally, how will i work so i can afford to live outside mom's house? Soon i graduate and dad will stop the child support. What will happen when im even older, my friends all married, my parents old or gone, me bankrupt and alone, my sister away, my mental illness worse? No therapy works, i can't find the cure. I try so hard but i guess im too far gone. Im broken and lost. My past, my country, family, physical and mental illness are my death sentence. A fortune teller told me i will end up alone and crazy, living in the mental ward. I can't forget it. I was going to the psychiatrist and i saw such a woman, she was also complaining about her mother and looking like a mess, and i feel like that's what awaits me.

[CLB1125]

Im sorry you are so unhappy. I don’t know what else I can suggest to help you. You said your dad is a doctor, can’t he help you find help for your symptoms?

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

He's a veterinary doctor and doesn't understand mental health and has new family to deal with

[SoporRose in reply to CLB1125]

AtC,

I can only second what CLB1125 wrote. I wish we had solutions for you. I hope you can get out of where you are, perhaps on a scholarship somewhere to continue your education. You're smart enough to get a PhD.

[UnBaked_Cake]

Hello, I am so sorry you feel this way. It is always hard to not be afraid/ scared of the future and what's to come of ourselves.

The thing with mental health is, it is all trial and error on what works and what does not work. Oftentimes, when we keep seeing results of what we are trying not working, we feel like failures or feel broken.

You are a person with feelings, and it is okay to let them out.

Just remember, you are doing your best. Don't compare yourself to others like the psychiatrist. You can do this.

Don't base your future off of one fortune teller. YOU are in charge of your own future, and you can do and decide how your future will hold. It's up to you to take those steps to reach your goals.

It's going to be hard but remember to breathe and take it one storm at a time. It will all work out as it should. You're doing great.

[CLB1125]

fortune tellers don’t know the future. They feed off things you tell them and make up things.