I did a mistake applying for a job while I'm unwell

[Against_the_current]

Mom's toxic but i want to go home, i feel anxious and nauseous here and this interview is killing me. Now im wondering how to turn it down. I can't do it. I got so nauseous, anxious, heart racing, head hurting. I don't want to burn the bridge because it's a good opportunity if i don't find anything in my field after a few months but i can't do it now. Why did i have to apply? People peer-pressured me into "work so you don't have time for anxiety". Now im here and im on critical again

Edit. It's just that i have been vomiting since a child and have had issues leaving home. Been thinking i can't work with these mental and physical issues

[gajh]

I think you should go home. You have time to think about the interview it is not until next week. Give yourself some time.

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

It's on monday. Mom's free till Monday

[April2024 in reply to Against_the_current]

Do you live with her

[bmarie96]

maybe try it out ? i know sometimes after i fight through it ill be good. maybe ask part time and work yourself up to fulltime?

[Against_the_current in reply to bmarie96]

I'm intented to be part time. I don't feel ready. I could have at least one more month free

[April2024 in reply to Against_the_current]

I know how you feel. It is so hard to explain mental health issues to people. I feel looked down on by my whole family because I can't work. I don't even think my therapist understands

[97Bunny11]

I was the same way when I applied to a job I thought I wasn’t ready for.

Everybody is different, but I ended up doing it any way. Did I like it? No. Did I make the money? Yes. Did I leave when it became too much for me? Yes. Do I regret that decision? No.

Everybody’s situation is different. And sometimes you don’t have the choice to back out. I don’t know your situation, but take a deep breath and breathe. You are in control of your life, remember that. If you know in your heart that this job is not the one for you, then listen to it, if you can. If you take it and it takes a toll on you, I strongly suggest for you to take care of your health first and find another place that will give you more peace.

I wish you luck, friend. You’ve got this ❤️

[Against_the_current in reply to 97Bunny11]

Thank you. I just feel that it would be a good job just not now

[CLB1125]

I wish you well with whatever you choose to do.

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you

[SoporRose]

Give yourself a chance. Please.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I don't know. I'm scared and nauseous 😭. I should have applied when i was better, i don't want to lose the chance now but im terrified. I can't even arrrive in time. I got myself more troubles when i was anxious

[MaggieSylvie]

If I were in your shoes (and I have been), I would take a beta blocker. Being a violinist, getting an audition means you have to be prepared to play a prepared piece for several minutes, not just four minutes - longer. I was so chilled that the panel let me play right on to the end of the first movement of a concerto, including a cadenza (the part where you show off extra skills), and I got the job. I know I played well. After that, I never needed to take a beta blocker again, no matter what life threw at me. See your doctor.

[Against_the_current in reply to MaggieSylvie]

I do need to see a doctor and ask for it. I tend to have low blood pressure usually because i don't eat and because it's hot and because of my Clonasepam but stopping the adrenaline would be good. I get adrenaline rushes and im so drained that i fall asleep in the middle of the day

[Teaching]

Listen to your body and do what works for you.

[Against_the_current in reply to Teaching]

You're the first who says that. And i think i can't push my body beyond its limits

[Teaching in reply to Against_the_current]

Please don't over push unless your body says yes. O couldn't work for years until my body was ready.

[Against_the_current in reply to Teaching]

I feel like I can't do it but i don't know what to do with the interview

[Teaching in reply to Against_the_current]

Try and go for the interview. Start from there and know how you feel after the interview.

[Against_the_current in reply to Teaching]

Thank you. I just don't want to be in their blacklist. I want to keep the option open

[Teaching in reply to Against_the_current]

It's ok, just listen to your body because I know what it means when your body says NO.

[Against_the_current in reply to Teaching]

It can't take it. It wants to be home but mom just drunk texted me. The problem is that i don't have one problem

[SoporRose]

Do what you think is best. I hope everything works out!

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you! Thank you for your support through this whole circus. I think it's best to go and be honest that i have a health issue and ask if i can start later. I'm really worried when to arrive - if i arrive on Sunday night mom might be drunk. Monday morning - i will have no sleep and be stressed

[MaggieSylvie]

They've got a point: "Work until you don't have time for anxiety" but I think in your case anxiety has taken over. So yes, you do need to see a doctor - someone who can give you the help you need to get over this hurdle. Only then can you work until you don't have time for anxiety, because you want to make a contribution to life and you are missing out on your opportunities. Some counselling might help you, too, if not therapy. I hope you can see a doctor before the interview.😊

[Against_the_current in reply to MaggieSylvie]

Thank you. Unfortunately i can't. That's why i feel so bad, wish it was after some time

[MaggieSylvie in reply to Against_the_current]

Well, you know that this too will pass. However, you will feel better if you can help things along a little. Why can't you see a doctor?

[Against_the_current in reply to MaggieSylvie]

I'm in uni city. I'm seeing a doctor after im back and i visit my doctor, then see if the psychiatrist has free appointments. In order to arrive for the interview, i have to either go home on a Sunday evening when mom will be drunk as hell or monday morning and have barely sleep and break down. I'm not ready to work but idk if it helps about my situation with mom. Idk whether to talk to her about it and tell her i have this interview and idk what to do. She's absolutely inadequate.

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

If you can't work, think about volunteering somewhere. It will distract you, give you experience for your resume, allow you to meet new people, and won't have the same pressure as a job.

[MaggieSylvie]

Sunday evening, and do what you've always done when your mum is drunk, but make sure you get enough sleep.