Hey Everyone

[time_ardis]

My goal here is to verbalize some things that very few people know about. The first time I got beat up was in the 1st grade. My family was very poor, and my mom tried her best to put us in nice clothes no matter what. She didn't want us to get made fun of for being poor. There were two kids in my class who would practice punching on me just to see how it felt. I tried telling the teacher and she did nothing about it. Similar things like this continued all through elementary school. I have never thought very highly of myself and just tried to get through life without any confrontation. I am now 36 and the past year has been rough. I have never really dealt with any of it and it all seemed to come back all at once. I am not really what to do, but I didn't want to keep it to myself anymore.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. I am glad you are here sharing.

[time_ardis in reply to gajh]

Thank you

[Agora1]

Unfortunately time_ardis, sweeping our past trauma under the rug must eventually

be brought to light. Have you never talked with a therapist or school counselor

regarding your physical/emotional abuse at school? I think it's terrible that the

teacher never did anything to help you.

I'm happy that you found this safe community of virtual friends. We may not be

therapists or doctors, however we all have our own journeys that we've been on.

Helping support each other is our goal on this forum. Together, we can make a

difference in each other's lives. Welcome new friend to a caring community xx

[time_ardis in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I never did talk to anyone back then, after trying with the teacher. My wife knows and she has been very supportive. I've never talked with a therapist about it. With my job there is a fine line between getting help and loosing the ability to do my job, so I have been pretty quiet about it.

[Agora1 in reply to time_ardis]

You are blessed new friend, in having a loved one understand and support you.

Now it's time for you to love yourself as well. You are at an important time of your

life where changes can and need to be made to continue forward.

I'm so truly sorry that you suffered as you did starting at such a young age.

It always saddens me when young children are bullied and abused by their own

peers. What a harsh learning experienced you had about life.

I hope we can help you gain some confidence in who you are as well as who

you have become in spite of a difficult start. We're here for you. xx

[tommy2toes]

Hi Ya:

Welcome to our little corner of the Internet. I’m glad you have opened up about this. Hopefully, on this forum, you will come to find people who empathize with what you are experiencing. Of course, you have done the right thing by posting about your experiences, no matter how distressing they were (they still are). No man is an island, nor is it healthy to keep everything bottled up inside. I hope your having spoken of your truth will give you both some peace of mind and comfort going forward.

t2t (tommy2toes)

[time_ardis in reply to tommy2toes]

Thankyou it is comforting to finally state this to someone other than my wife.

[tommy2toes in reply to time_ardis]

Again, it is the right thing to do. Of course, we should be able to speak to our spouses, etc., however, there is limit to that as well. Nobody wants the ghosts of their past reaching out and damaging their home lives.