Emotional Roller Coaster

[sunflowers09]

Hello y'all,

I am new to this community and happy to be a part of it.

Recently, I have more frequent episodes of being nervous, unease, racing heartbeats and very difficult to stay focused during my day. I am going to take a big exam next month but those feelings are very distracting and heavy to handle. I would love to seek for your advice or experiences on how to solve those feelings. Some people said journaling seems to help but I don't know where to start; my brain is like empty when I am about to jot down my thoughts and feelings. My emotion is like a roller coaster. @.@

Thanks for reading my post. 🧠🫀

[Ciscosmom]

boy…do I feel exactly like you do. I am sorry you are struggling. It’s so difficult at times.

Today is a day when I am at work and completely unfocused. I try to journal as well but my mind is blank of anything. So I search the internet hoping to find the magic solution to heal me.

[sunflowers09 in reply to Ciscosmom]

So do I. I am looking for ways to solve those unwanted feelings and to improve my mental clarity. My aunt suggested me to practice meditation, but I always feel scared of closing my eyes too long, like I am very aware of surrounding even when I am in a safe place. Thus, I have trouble falling asleep at night and again it contributes to my metal clarity. These problems are like a circle without an exit.

[sunflowers09]

The exam is definitely one of the factors. However, there are none factors sometimes but I still have that feelings, like panic attacks as I feel anxy about nothing. People used to describe me as a calm and patient person but it has changed over the past few months. I used to be very focused and hard to get distracted but recently I have been totally opposite. My mind keeps wandering from place to place...

[Dolphin14]

Welcome to the community.

Have you talked to a doctor about all this?

Looking at what you are writing here it is exactly what you would write in your journal.

I'm curious about your description of not being able to close your eyes and you use the word "safe" Do you know what caused this?

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[sunflowers09 in reply to Dolphin14]

Hi Dolphin14,

No, I have not talked about these feelings with anyone. I just dont know if those feelings are valid to share or maybe they are too generic to be true psychological/medical symptoms. Plus, I don't know if my PCP would care about those feelings or I need to bring it up to a therapist instead.

I feel a bit scared of closing my eyes completely while meditating as I feel less in control of the environment, even in my own house- that's what I meant by a "safe" place. Maybe I am one of those who don't like darkness or feeling of being out of control 😅.

Thanks for your advice. I will try it on my journal again.

[Dolphin14 in reply to sunflowers09]

Hi

Sometimes those " safe" words are used when people have gone through a trauma, that's why I asked. I have PTSD so that's why I picked up on that.

Maybe the support here will be enough to get you to the point of exam. If these feelings continue post exam you should see someone for professional help

[sunflowers09]

Hello TwinklySunflower 🌻🌻Your profile picture is very cool 😎

[Cookie2217]

Hi there. Try to do some breathing exercises. You just breathe in 3 seconds hold for four seconds and then breathe out 5 seconds. Meditation is helpful too and I LOVE journaling too! Get a journal that has writing prompts to guide you so you don't worry about where to begin when you write. Welcome to the group! You'll find really nice and helpful people here.