Adjusting to life since Mum went back home

[Roukaya]

I hope everyone is coping with life .

I am slowly realising each and every one of us has our unique path to follow and life experiences.

I have been over dependent with my Mother as well as my inability to find employment since I lost my Father back in 2018.

Apart from passing the Diploma in Probate Law and Practice Diploma I have not moved on and the area by which I live in is fast becoming a ghost town .

It takes courage and resilience to persevere and to take full responsibility for one’s own life and to steer our course of life in the right direction.

I can see my loneliness goes hand in hand with anxiety and being out of work has not helped .

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Good morning Roukaya I know it's really hard been alone and unemployed despite your hard word with studying and passing your diploma mistakes be so heartbreaking I know it was your dream to be a lawyer,or solicitor, but at least you have the qualifications now, just a thought but when you sell your property maby you could buy into a practice, maby put notes through there doors asking if want a partner, probably silly idea but my friends daughter works for a company where she was offered shares in the buiseness, all you can do is keep applying for jobs, as you know I had to be patient to sell my house because of my rat infestation taking over a year to find the broken drain then my attempts to get the bus shelter removed which paid off in the end but unfortunately not until after I sold my house cheap, but I got more than would if had sold the year I wanted in order to get my mum's nebours house, I was devastated but happy ending I got as got my dream home one I never thought I'd ever be able to afford it get as they sell soon as on market before even, but fate and my positive thinking and visualising myself in there even it had sold lol, sorry i know you know some of my story, the buyers dropped out unknowingly to me just as i decided to put note through and went round back the couple were in the garden, fate is fate but we need to give it a helping hand, you will move house one day time fly's maby think about different town, how about moving back to your home country, would that help you make friends and your loneliness, start smiling at others when yiur out shopping etc dont tell them your problems,forget yourself foccus on them I know you have a sense humour people are more attracted to happy people that make them happy as in laugh not those that bring out mood down, it will help you too if you smile and think happy thoughts, yiu say your going to the gym the exercise will help seretonin, I enjoyed a good film last night I'm but sad at not been able to do the diy I wanted with my recent flare of my old illness, but ill do some light DIY I'm lucky i have a garden put that on your list, why dont you start looking at properties now and different areas see whats happening, take care i wish you the life that makes your happy, oh and as i said join in on others posts give them advice and support, this will help you too and forget your own troubles for a while, 🤗💛🌻

[Roukaya in reply to Hidden]

Good morning I hope you are recovering from your illness.

I appreciate your reply and in the country of my Mother, it is nepotism and who you know .

Many are leaving her country to make a life in uk .

Thanks for your understanding

I hope one day to turn a corner and move forward and positive things happen if we think positively.

A long lost friend made contact which is a positive.

My neighbours no longer speak to me and I will not allow this to bring me down

I did put an advert to find a Solicitor in order to set up a Community based practice but no one responded.

Time and life are precious and I will use my time positively and after such a struggle eventually you found the right house.

With me , once I put the rental flat for sale , I will forfeit my income however, I intend to rent the flat I am living in but the income will be less, hence the necessity to find employment.

I have done my best for my Mother and I have asked Mum to join me eventually in UK.

I put aside my studies mainly because I lost my motivation but I will keep on trying and thank you for your understanding.

The weather is cold here

How are you ?

[Hidden in reply to Roukaya]

I'm doing well thanks but you can't have your mother live with you that doesn't work because of how she is narcissistic so I hope that's not your plan we discussed this before that she upsets you too much, weathers cold here too but bearable I need sun light to help my seasonal associated disorders I suffer from bad head pain in cold Trigiminal nuralgia but I keep busy and it's easier to deel with,my other health issue my colitis is on the mend I'll have to watch what I eat forever and I'm hoping to come off meds at some point like last time It went away and in remisshion 9 half years no meds 🙄 I'm going to the shops bit later with my mum taking some clothes to charity shop trouble is when I go there we come back with more stuff haha, my condition has made me tired but I did far bit of work in garden weekend, ill get on doing light diy stripping bit paper off waiting for my builder to do some stuff i can't continue with now I need to ask if he's coming weekend still he got delayed last set date 🤗

[hypercat54 in reply to Roukaya]

Lots of other good countries they could live in apart from the UK...

[Roukaya]

Good evening I hope you are ok.

I wonder what you mean by "lots of good countries they could live apart from UK."

I would like to explain I have applied to the Country of my Mother as well as for a few opportunities in Dubai but no or little response .

I am a dual national and educated in UK.

However, I will continue to try.