feeling down

[Daisy425]

these past two weeks I’ve let myself go because I’ve been so anxious. I was trying to lose weight and now I’m just eating whenever I can and whatever sounds good since I’m anxious and have a hard time eating. I look at pictures from last year and I look so much thinner and I look happier. I’m also just anxious about the stomach bug. The news is filled with how the stomach bug is running through my state. It already kind of went through my school that I work in but I’m nervous. I want to start going to the gym but after work I get anxious and just want to come home. I have therapy tomorrow night which will be good. I just am so disappointed and disgusted with myself. I’m letting myself and everyone else down.

[LoveforAll41]

Ooph, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way Daisy. It is a very sad fact that society wants us to focus on weight and appearance more than almost anything. Bodies are fickle. I think it is wonderful that you are eating and getting what nourishment you can into your body.

I ran away from my negative feelings for years by binge eating, and it is hard and sad that we then have to worry about weight compounding our issues. The key for me was working on my anxiety and depression. It is also essential to keep yourself nourished and make sure your body is happy.

I would imagine that your pictures from last year where from times you wanted to remember, so I think you would be likely to look happy. I have to hit the gym before work or do at home workouts. Don't beat yourself up for not going, try to find something you love, etc.

I just want to stress that weight is secondary to our perceptions of ourselves and the world (or are ideally) and take care of yourself first. Sorry for rambling.☮️