Feeling very alone and struggling with mental health problems

[Favoritecolorblue]

I've been feeling really unwell the past two years. From one minute to the next I just fell apart. I suddenly felt very alone and everything just became one big mess and I saw myself in a big black hole and I've been sitting in that hole since then. I started feeling really lonely and I was extremely anxious about my phone to check who texted me and if someone texted me and to see other people online socializing with one another but not with me and I really started caring about these things. Long story short I've been thru horror aside from having a traumatic childhood and teenhood.Its gotten to a point where I feel so stuck with life and I'm really really anxious and depressed.

People are being judgemental towards me and block me out of their lives.

Some people who were really supportive just shut me out and the pain of people doing that just keeps growing.

I've been having numerous thoughts of wishing I was dead.

Lately things have been horrible and I'm lacking support.

Im feeling very very alone

[AnxiousSilver]

"Im feeling very very alone "

We are here.

[Shnookie]

please call 988 the Crisis hotline. They R supportive and compassionate. Do you have a psychiatrist ? R U on meds ? I’m here 4 U.

[Favoritecolorblue in reply to Shnookie]

I've already tried calling 988 in the past but they fell asleep during the call.

[Craigliving4Jane]

Hey FCB. Very, unfortunately, for so many of us, we have felt the same feelings that you have. What that means is you’re not alone. It’s unfortunate that people don’t understand and you’re having some shut you out but I for one have had the same exact things happen to me. my pain was immense and any solutions were evading me and I’m sure in my case I was a handful sometimes on the amount of times I was talking and looking for ideas from others . We obviously do that one we can’t find them ourselves, and we are reaching out to stop the pain.

I hear so many people on here talk about their anxiety . it seems so very different from what I experienced up until recent help that took anaway about 90% of my symptoms. The worry ,the panic attacks and other symptoms are not what I experienced at all ,so I’m curious what is it you are able to do medication wise Also holistic measures such as med, breathing exercises and like?

Also is there anything else you can try to alleviate your symptoms. If you possibly can I can pretty much assure you that your social life will be much better.

For me I totally struggled with my social life when I was under the weight of anxiety and depression. Once I found relief, I was much more able to express myself in a way that was pleasing others.

I care deeply. Contact me anytime

Craig

[Stargirl5]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I can relate to a lot of the things you described. It feels scary when your own mind feels like a mess bc it feels like you’re trapped. I don’t know anyone else who struggles with anxiety and depression so it can feel lonely when the people around you don’t understand what’s going on and how hard it’s been. I want you to know that you’re 100% not alone in feeling these things. If you have access to a therapist I’d definitely recommend it, they can really help when you’re feeling stuck and fearing isolation. I totally understand that it can be a real pain to find one/afford them/ find one that works for you tho. Journaling can also help sometimes just to get some of the anxious thought out. You’re not alone <3

[Favoritecolorblue in reply to Stargirl5]

I appreciate your warm words and yes people who don't deal with what I'm dealing with are very judgemental and misunderstanding.

[Stargirl5 in reply to Favoritecolorblue]

That must feel really frustrating and painful. During my anxiety/ depression episodes my friends got mad at me and left me bc I wasn’t hanging out with them enough or was acting weird. You definitely deserve ppl who have empathy, understanding and truly care.