feeling alone and trapped

[Daisy425]

I know these posts sound so dumb and I apologize. I found out I have covid. Today is day two of symptoms. Being sick is such a huge anxiety trigger for me. The past four years when I’ve been sick I’ve been alone in my apartment which has caused a lot of anxiety. Now I live with my boyfriend. This is the first time one of us is sick. I’m trying to stay away from him on our one bedroom apartment which is a challenge. He will sleep on the couch tonight. He feels fine. I feel slightly better knowing he is here, but feeling crappy just makes me so anxious. Tomorrow he is supposed to stay at a friends in New York. If he is negative for Covid he will be going. I know if I asked him to stay with me he would but I feel like that isn’t fair especially because he’s been confined to the living room all day today. I will have the dog and while I don’t love taking her out when I don’t feel good I think it will really help having her with me so I don’t feel as alone. I really don’t know what about being sick makes me so anxious. I do have a fear of throwing up. I also just hate not feeling myself. I’m sorry for the long and rambling post. I just feel slightly trapped and alone and need a friend

[b1b1b1]

I also become very anxious if I am sick or don't feel like myself. Being anxious on top of being sick is not much fun. Try to discuss these fears with your therapist. Meanwhile try to sleep and rest as much as possible and when you are awake try to distract yourself with TV. I think you will feel much better in a few days. x

[Sunnyday100 in reply to b1b1b1]

go to doctor ASAP

[PadThaiNoodles]

Yeah, Covid has gotten a lot milder since the early days. Last time I had it it was like a mild cold. The worst should be over in a few days. Keep courage.

[b1b1b1]

I mentioned that I have similar fears in an answer to your post yesterday. My therapist puts my fears over being sick down to the fact that my Father was an extreme hypochondriac, but only where I was concerned. If I had a cold he thought and SAID that I could be dying. I wonder if you had anything in your childhood that might have made you afraid of not feeling well. Or, did you actually have an illness in your childhood that was more serious.

The good thing now, is you know what is wrong with you, and you know what to do about it. Furthermore, it is very remote that it could become really serious. Try to rest and maybe take a tranquilizer if you have one. Keep in mind that you can always call your doctor Monday if you are still very anxious. Reassurance from a medical person can help. xx

[Riley2001]

Why are you apologizing? You matter!

[optimismrus]

Lovingly I say, "there are no dumb posts". And I'm glad you told us how you're feeling. I'm glad you have the dog - they are so loving. 🥰