it’s fine

It’s not worth it, I rather have people replace me. I really don’t expect anyone to understand my issue, I mean it’s getting annoying for people. I’ve already tried many mental health professionals in the past even now. I’m just not looking

I know that I have been depressed about not having friends and terrible social skills. people view that as childish and I understand that. So, it’s not a big deal. I don’t care “but it’s a big deal for you” when it doesn’t seem like.

I have the right, I’ll stop impressing humanity.

[davidthecoder]

Hi shyynoir,

I just wanted to say that I don't think someone is childish for being depressed. Anyone that thinks that, does not understand depression. It can happen to anyone. There are highly successful people that have depression.

Also I think on these forums, you will find many people that do understand your issue, since they have a similar challenge they are facing.

I think you came to the right place and I hope that others will also respond to your post and show some support for you in this struggle.

[Hidden in reply to davidthecoder]

Hello davidthecoder

I know depression is serious and I know depression is common. I’ve been here for a while and just like many, people don’t understand and they might say understanding me but they don’t. I get that they’re trying help and give me advices, but those advices are what I already did before and it didn’t work.

Only like two I believe respond to my last posts and the advices are just the same I did before and heard too many times. I’m not sure about being in a right place, I feel like I’m venting too much.

I’m sorry that I come across as being rude.

[davidthecoder in reply to Hidden]

You haven't come across as rude at all. And the not feeling understood by others part, well I had the same problem. That is why I deleted my Facebook.

I also try not to give advice since I am not a professional. I just like to show support on here and try to relate to others that are struggling. It makes me feel less bad knowing I am not the only one that is having mental challenges.

Something that has helped me a lot that I always mention on here is meditation. When I am focusing on my breathing, I am not thinking about all of the worry that happens with anxiety. Plus the physical symptoms, they are very uncomfortable. If I don't focus on my breathing, I will focus on those troubling thoughts and physical feelings, and then they become stronger. Maybe you know what I am talking about here. Of course I realize that not everyone will benefit from it the same way I have, and it has taken a lot of time to develop that skill (like any skill).

[Hidden in reply to davidthecoder]

Hello,

I apologize for the late reply. Thank you for showing support and thank you for the advice. I’ve already done meditation before but it didn’t help me at all, but I feel like because I didn’t try hard enough. When people say they “understand” my problems but I know when they say understand about the depression or the anxiety part and that’s it.

Thank you again for showing support and try to give me an advice.

[Thankfulforhelp22]

If it’s important to you then it is important! Feeling alone and isolated makes you feel unworthy. You are a person who has challenges that are difficult but one who is just as valuable, important and deserving of love as anyone walking this planet.

Bless you.

[Hidden in reply to Thankfulforhelp22]

Thank you for the bless. My apologies for the late reply.

I know that feeling alone and isolated makes me feel unworthy but I know that I am unworthy, isolating and loneliness is what I can do now since all the things that I tried to get better never seem to work. Advices, mental health services, lack of support, try to connect with people who are supposed to be “my people”, forums, crisis line, etc. none of them works.

If people especially my family say that it’s not important then I must accept that it’s important even it hurts me a lot.

[PrinceMom]

Hi, nice to meet you. You certainly have the right to feel the way you do - we all do. So no shame or guilt in that. I've been in bed crying for 3 straight days before convinced that nobody would understand. Well I was wrong.

Keep posting and talking to us here, because so many of us have been in your shoes and somehow - got through it once.

I , too, have had extreme difficulty finding the right psychiatrist/therapist. I've been searching again for the last 6 months after my "good" one quit. But I have hope. There is always hope. Best wishes to you. Keep reading and writing!

[Hidden in reply to PrinceMom]

Hello, nice to meet you too. My apologies for the late response.

I’m sorry that you had to go through that, I thought people understands. I don’t want to sound rude or anything but when people say that they “understand”, they only understand the depression and the anxiety part and that’s it.

I want to talk with people but I struggled to socialize with anyone. I lack of social skills, I have always had a hard time with socializing and making any sort of connections with people. I even had a hard time with socializing or connecting with people who are just like me in any way.

Now, I have a therapist and a psychiatrist, still doesn’t seem to work for me but I have no choice to just stick with them now. I’ve been trying to find a “good” one for two years. I can tell my mental health is declining rapidly.

Thanks for the wishes. I’ll try my best to keep reading and writing. Thank you again.