hi! this is my first post. my depression started a little over 3.5 years ago. i really don't know what to do anymore. everyone says it will get better, but i really doubt it. i keep thinking i'm at my lowest, but i just get lower and lower. i can't take it. i really don't know what to do. i have an amazing therapist, and i've tried many different medications. however, nothing is working. i've been working so hard to get better.
am i just not fixable?
Please don't feel as if you are unfixable, you don't need to be fixed. I struggle more with the anxiety side of things, but I know that it can be really disheartening when you are years into a journey with no end in site. Have you tried a DBT group or course of treatment? I had a lot of success with the group I was a part of because it helped address things that were in my life worsening my mental health. I also am preparing to start EMDR which I have heard amazing things about. I also didn't see you mention that you are on any medication, I resisted medication for a long time and only took it when I knew it was the only way to save my life. Being where I am now, even-though things aren't perfect I only regret that I didn't start medication sooner. It has made therapy so much more productive and provided a much higher quality of life for me. As hard as it is, coregulation is so important. You can coregulate with a calm person you have a positive relationship with, a pet you can pet and snuggle, or even by getting a professional massage. I normally wouldn't splurge on one, but I found out massage schools have students who have discount massages. I can't have a cat in my apartment but have a stuffed animal I talk to and have created an amusing back-story for. Some people probably think I am crazy as an adult woman having a squishmellow unicorn named Todd, but it brings me comfort. Also my husband and I have a lot of fun pretending he is sentient and a businessman.
What kind of therapist do you have? What medications have you tried?
Welcome. Well I can tell you something that helped with my depression and that is this site. Before this site I had a really hard time getting out of bed and once up all I wanted to do was go back to bed. I found this site, became active here, and met some wonderful people that can relate. Now I look forward to getting out of bed, checking for messages, and talking to people. I spend my time reading through posts instead of wanting to go back to bed. I think it makes all the difference in the world to talk to people who also suffer from depression and anxiety. It is different than just talking to a therapist. I hope you find this site as helpful as I have. I do believe there is hope for you. Keep reaching out for support here you will get it.
Hi, I have been struggling with depression for 40 years and I just take it day by day. I have had a lot of medication and numerous therapists over the years. I used to be in mental hospitals for my depression. The depression for me is the same it always has been. I just learned to cope with it day by day. There are times I don't think about it and other times it is overwhelming, but I got used to it. Dealing with it is a constant struggle and I learned over 30 years ago that it will be with me for the rest of my life. It has its ups and downs and I just got used to it. Keep going, don't give up. Will it get better? Maybe not, but you have to accept it and deal with it on a constant basis.
One thing to think about is that although we hear over and over that we can get over (cure) our emotional issues, that is not necessarily true. We are led to believe in the hope that one day we will magically feel better, but the reality is that it may always be a struggle. That said, learning how to cope and live the best life YOU can makes a great and obtainable goal. Thinking about it in these terms may take some of the pressure off and provide a different focus for treatment. If we get too focused on being cured we don't always live our best lives.
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