Anxiety is really spiking

[Kat63]

I feel like I might go crazy. I’m terrified that my partner might leave me. We’ve been together 22 years and we’ve been through some problems, but we did get back together and we’ve been BACK together for four and a half years now.

Lately at night, he’s been getting out of bed and going to sleep on the couch. I worked up the courage to ask him about it a few days ago. He said it’s not to get away from me.

The truth is, I’ve only had rare respites of NOT feeling anxious about him for years now (ever since the first trouble, about eight years ago now.)

I’m almost 60 and he’s almost 65, and we’ve been together so long, I honestly think I’ll actually lose my mind and need to be locked up if I lose him.

And it’s crazy, because everything in my life seems perfectly normal these days. He’s always had trouble sleeping; we are both somewhat irregular sleepers. I’m probably getting upset about nothing.

I need to take an Ativan. I do talk to my doctor in about 2.5 weeks for a meds check.

[Kat63]

He and I both snore, LOL.

And like I said, he’s always been kind of a delicate sleeper.

I’m fairly sure that this is my fear of abandonment acting up. This has happened to me before—just not this badly for a couple of years.

At least it’s been a longer period of time since the last time I felt this way.

And, the Ativan has kicked in now.