When the going gets tough and you feel weary and hopeless and you see no way through the dilemma it's time to give yourself a talking to.
I have been so much on the edge recently, it's like a big dark cloud enveloping me.
People have deserted me when i had no more to give, it was all ok when i was entertaining friends constantly, but when i decided to cut back on my giving, the friends all drifted away, which is why i use the term friend guardedly as in truth the word friend is bandied about so much it has little meaning, the fact is we all have many acquaintances, but friends they are not, if you have one or two dependable's you are fortunate indeed.
Much against my better judgement i have decided to not entertain friends over Christmas and new year as i've always done, and i know it means i will be more alone, but its a decision i've made for my own peace. It has to be done.
And those days at Christmas and new year, are just days to get through.