Major Depression

[mauv]

I am very depressed and need some encouragement from people who understand. I am resistent to all antidepressents.I am hoping to try Trans Magnetic Therapy as a last resort. I am barely hanging in here. I am so drained by my depressions. I am 78 and have had them since I have been 21. Meds worked for years but stoppped working 3 yrs ago. I have a strong. faith and that has kept me going. I need some support right now from you guys. Thanks

[Springvale23]

Like you I have journeyed through life with this mental illness. First diagnosed at 21 and still struggling at 69. Although I was affected by anxiety in my teens but didn’t know what it was. Used to beg my Mother not to send me to school, but couldn’t explain what was wrong. My advice to you is the same as to myself. Be careful of taking too much on, ie too busy, and be careful of doing too little. A balance of work, rest and play. At the minute I have taken time away from play. I am concentrating on rest and getting my home into some order as I have neglected it being too busy at social outings. I become overwhelmed without a balance albeit trimming play as I was spending too much time away from home and neglected my rest and work. I am retired , but refer to work as housework and keeping a tidy home, providing myself with good home cooked meals instead of a quick snack and out at social events. Hope you can find relief.

Like you , I am a person of faith and am learning it’s not good to compare myself to others. “ What is that to you, follow me”. I need to remind myself of this. Comparison is no friend.

[LifeIsThePitts]

I've been successful with TMS therapy since Feb '22 when I was at the end of my rope and thought there was nothing left for me to try. It has SAVED my life. I do Theta Burst TMS. It addresses depression anxiety and motivation problems. 3 areas of the head with 3 different pulses to calm down the anxiety , wake up the sluggish depression area and regulate your motivation depending on whether you're over or under motivated.

I pay out of pocket for my ongoing treatment protocol. I'm around $10k since the start about 20 months ago. It's a HUGE financial and time commitment. The first 36 session series is a big commitment but I highly recommend you give it your all! You've got nothing to lose but your terrible mental health symptoms!🤭😉

Now I go every 3-4 weeks for a "maintenance" session to maintain my personal stability. Everyone is has a different response and remission window. It has repeatedly reset my TRD and anxiety and given me back my ability to live my life in a MUCH better state of mind. I'm making gigantic strides in my personal growth. I couldn't have done that without this treatment. I'm almost 49 and have hope for the future. But it's a requirement in my monthly schedule now.

This month was really bad. I needed 3 TMS sessions over 3 days when normally it's 1 Every 4 wks. I fell into an anxiety triggering insomnia episode when my husband's shoulder surgery disrupted our daily schedule and my anxious worrying triggered a 3 wk episode that is finally receding. I'm reloading my sleep bank now. Finally able to get my brain back online.

I did 2 Ketamine infusions prior to starting TMS treatment. If you're wondering about neoroplasticity prior to starting TMS

bespoketreatment.com/tms-th...

Here's the clinic in NV that I go to. It's got a bunch of great info to browse through. Let me know if you have any questions ☺️ I want to help 🙏 if I can!!

[mauv in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

I am at the end of my rope. I see my doctor on Tues and I pray he will start TMS on me. I have been struggling in this depression since March. I know I can’t control this mental illness or cure it. I just want some relief from the control it has on me. I don’t want to feel so depressed. It saps me of so much energy. I. Ope as best I can. I help others but it doesn’t help my depression. I play cards once a week with the girls because I like playing cards but that doesn’t change my mood either. I am just hanging on. I really want to give TMS a try. It is my last resort. It helped you so I pray it will help me. Is your husband supportive with your mental illness? Mine is not.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to mauv]

I've too come to the conclusion that being cured in the sense that you're cured after you recover from a cold, isn't really an option for treatment resistant depression and anxiety. It's more like diabetes that you have to take insulin for to manage over the rest of your lifetime. BUT!! There IS such a thing as a remission-like existence from the severity of the SEVERE symptoms you're currently trying to cope with.

My husband is my rock and his support is the main reason I'm still living and breathing. I've been through 4 spine fusions, both shoulders surgically reconstructed and gallbladder removed between Oct '16 and April '22...7 major surgical procedures in 5.5 yrs...the first two nearly ended my career, I was out of work for 9 months with 2 spinal surgeries in 6 days with a week in the hospital with TERRIBLE physical damage that I almost didn't survive.

TMS was my saving grace. Ask about the Theta Burst option for depression anxiety and motivation. My understanding is that over 50% of TMS recipients recieve positive results. I have no other mental illnesses... just treatment resistant depression and anxiety, well I'm also ADHD, PTSD, childhood sexual abuse, addiction and substance abuse and disorded eating patterns...but those are all results from being undiagnosed and untreated for my mental health in my 20-40s. I truly didn't receive the proper treatment for my mental health until last year. Just struggled through it all until it nearly killed me....and over time, if mental health is not properly addressed and treated, it seems to overwhelm and bury us all.

You can reach out to me anytime here or in PM if you have questions...I'm ALWAYS around and want to help as many people as possible 😉🙏

[mauv in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

I have PTSD and major depression with anxiety. I have had 13 surgeries since the age of 33. The first was a C- section and Tubal Ligation with my last child. I have had both total knees repaired and Rt shoulder total repair. Also major abdominal surgery and many other surgeries. I had 4 children. I died in her sleep at 3 months, and my boy had muscular dystrophy all his life and died at age 33. One daughter is developly delayded and is 44 but but functions at age 12. One daughter is normal but she lives 9 hrs away from me. I have 2 lovely granddaughters age13 and 15. The 13 yr old was just diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. She is in a Tx program and doing well. My husband uses my depression against me. He doesn’t understand and doesn’t want too. I also have irritable bowel and Fibro. I have had a very hard life. This group is a life saver for me right now. I thank you specially.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to mauv]

Your life has been filled with painful events. I'm so sorry for the losses of your children. I chose very early on NOT to procreate. I'm adopted and abandoned at birth. My "Mom" died when I was 19 and that's essentially where I stopped growing up in many ways. 30 yrs down the road I'm finally getting the support required for me to start healing and maturing. Mental health has been a overriding and deciding factor in my whole adult life...I'm trying to regain control over my mind and learn to live with my disorders instead of constantly running from them. I'm so very tired I cannot keep up the fight and flight...the running away from myself.

TMS opened doors for me that I couldn't access prior to getting my brain functions stabilized.

I'm hoping that will be a possibility for you too.