Had a bit of a meltdown 😭 *TRIGGER WARNING for those who are suffering with depression

[Cb1963]

I was over a the hospital on Tuesday, and for whatever reason I had a bit of a breakdown, I firstly got the date wrong for the appointment, I travelled on the wrong day, so I ended up going a day before hand, so eventually went on the correct day, and it was a fare old distance I had to travel, I've been suffering with cluster headaches and they are absolutely brutal, to cut to the chase i started reeling off my difficulties with alcohol and why I ended up becoming an alcoholic, I ended up spilling the reason why, I witnessed my friend hanging, and I couldn't save his life, me and my then partner moved from the area and thought it would be a fresh start, only six months later I tried to rescue a toddler out of a dustbin full of water, I was giving the child the kiss of life until the ambulance arrived, but sadly the mother came round a few hours later she said her daughter had died, but i knew already her little girl had died, but you try your best when these circumstances face you, I was physically sick ,these thoughts never leave my head on any living moment, and yes I was an alcoholic, but sober for 11 + years, I'm damaged goods, and now I have neuropathy from the damage from drinking, of course I wished i never drank, but there's no tablets that ever takes your memory away, as for these headaches, well , never thought a headache could cause so many problems, trying to get a decent night's sleep would be a bonus, but thank goodness that HU is 24/7 thanks for listening and I hope I've not offended anyone,

[Nowwearefree]

As I see it you must have been an excellent friend to the person who committed suicide to care so much.Also to try to save a child ..if you are Sober you are very disciplined too.

You must have a lot of good qualities...so be proud of yourself 👌

[catsrock]

Wow, that is a lot of traumatic stuff. I hope you get some answers soon about the headaches and get some relief.