Suicide Prevention day

[IncognitoC]

Tomorrow is suicide prevention day

[Dolphin14]

Dial 988 in the USA

Thank you for this post

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Suicide prevention ribbon

[IncognitoC in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you for sharing the USA number

[Dolphin14 in reply to IncognitoC]

Welcome

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I just want to die right now! I’ve been thinking about it all day and have relapsed with drinking vodka. I’m so angry at myself!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Please call 988 and ask for help.

You are a wonderful person

Please get help

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I’m not a wonderful person!!! I’m guilty for giving my son a bad life of addiction because of ME!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

We have all done things that we regret. I am a recovering addict, I lost everything and everyone. I ended up in prison through my addiction.

You have had a relapse, that’s ok! I got told that I could relapse at any time and 1 time is not the end of the world.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I ended up in prison too!!! Why am I not getting It!!! I’m just so tired of being stuck like this!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

I want you to get some help! Speak to your doctor or therapist if you have one. Call someone who you trust and tell them how you feel.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I hate myself for not giving him a better life!!! It’s because of me that he is now suffering!!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

What’s wrong with me!!!!????

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Nothing!

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I’m sick!!! I tried to end my life several times during my life and I’m feeling the same now as I did last time I tried to end it. Somehow I survived but barely made it that last time!! I just wish I could have been a better mother to my son.

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Unfortunately you can’t go back in time, what is done is done. You need to look at the future now. Ending your life will destroy him and everyone else in your life you don’t want to hurt him or everyone like that? No! Please call 988 and speak to them

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I am pretty sure that he hates me for giving him the addiction problem!! He doesn’t tell me that but I am pretty sure he feels that way!!!

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my son is addicted and it’s all MY fault!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Well you need to help him get clean right??? You can’t do that if you’re not here.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I can’t help him!! He has to help himself I know how it goes!!! I’m sorry but I’m just a complete mess of a human being

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

I can promise you that if you end your life he will never help himself. You need to be there to support him as much as possible. You and I both know how hard it is to beat addiction so he can’t do it alone

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I know this!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I’ve been struggling for weeks now with this guilt!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Guilt is a horrible thing to deal with

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I just wish I could go back in time and fix my life!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

We all wish that I can assure you

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Good. Then we are on the same page.

Relax now, take a deep breath. Calm yourself down.

Please call 988 if you’re really concerned that you will hurt yourself.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I am

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

I am here for you. I’m normally around most of the day and into the evening. Try to get some sleep or some rest.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I just hate myself so much!!!

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I just wished that I was a better mother!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

And it’s funny because I actually have asked him about this and he said that I was a good mother but I know that he is just saying that!!! I’m so broken it’s not funny!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

Listen to him! It’s your anxiety and depression that makes you feel bad. He obviously loves you.

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

The hardest person to try to forgive is yourself.

Yes you’ve made mistakes, yes you’ve done things your not proud of.

Beating yourself up is not the answer, because you can’t take it back. It’s done. You need to learn to accept that your not perfect and try to forgive yourself.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I don’t even know what to say or do anymore I’m just so broken.

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

As I said before, try and relax and take some time.

Don’t let your emotions dictate what you’re feeling.

A lot of what you’re experiencing is probably because you have had a drink today. Alcohol is a depressant.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

I had plenty of drinks today!!! But if I get myself “Fixed” my son will not be fixed!!! I did it to him and I cannot forgive myself for it!!!!

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I’m sorry I bothered you!!! It’s not my intention!!!!

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

I’m just glad I was here for you, don’t apologise for it.

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

If you get yourself fixed then you can help your son get fixed, there’s no magic spell for that. He just needs his mum to support him.

[Hidden in reply to IncognitoC]

Thank you for your help!

And being there right when I needed it the most! I called the hotline! I also called an AA member! I’m going to get help !-Shay

[IncognitoC in reply to Hidden]

I’m happy that you’re ok.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Are you ok today? I followed the thread but didn't want to interrupt as you got some great support.

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[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Hi I’m ok! I called the hotline! I also called Someone from AA ! I only drank one day! I got scared and then I became suicidal! The person was on with me for awhile and talked me down throughout the call! I didn’t tell them that I had a plan but I told them that I hated my life and that I am the reason why my son is addicted! I had been thinking for weeks of how I would do it and I was thinking of taking pills again and be gone but I didn’t tell him that either! The last time I tried to take my life I was found but had to be brought back to life and then placed on a ventilator in the ICU. I’m still extremely depressed but haven’t drank for several hours because I fell asleep. I’m just waking up and saw my message from you on my email! I’m going to try to get some help because I’m scared of losing my life very soon if I don’t get the help! Thank you for caring!-Shay

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

I'm very happy to hear you are ok. I'm glad you reached out for help.

I'm very sorry you are struggling with your issues as well as the situation with your son.

Are you on the drink free site here? Maybe that would be helpful?

Don't give up the fight. Keep reaching out for the help you need

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Yes I have gotten on the Drink free site! I’ve just been struggling with my life for awhile now and it’s when I picked up the drinks yesterday that I got myself feeling worse!

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

I was going to meetings for awhile then stopped and started going downhill

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

I’m really sick right now and getting offline.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Take care of yourself

[IncognitoC in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you Dolphin 👍

[Pitalife]

Rip to my little brother that took his own life in a horrible way,it haunts me and my mom daily, much hope and love to all that suffer,me being one as well, I have bad bipolar depression and it's very hard to cope w in this screwed up society...we must try to see what we are fortunate for as we all have plusses to weigh in its just hard to think ofbthem when where doe. N suffering....

[IncognitoC in reply to Pitalife]

My sympathy for your loss of your brother.

Everyone that is contemplating taking their own life needs someone who will listen at the very least.

[Pitalife]

He was strung out on illegal pain pill clinics here in Florida and lost everything, was quite the heartbreaking mess,he kept refusing help and I tried to baker act him but he became resilient to help he was very lost...drugs are bad move....chemicals that alter brain function n rational thinking....stay strong...

[IncognitoC in reply to Pitalife]

Thank you for sharing your experience.