I have been struggling with this to the extreme. My wonderful support husband is my world. I try real hard to be responsible for my own feelings but it's been harder. He has been making comments like "I don't like how that feels" I was attempting to cuddle him in bed and my chest is large and over lapped his arm. I just said "oh ok" and rolled over, doing my best to not cry. I am terrified of trying to snuggle him again and I feel like I'm avoiding intimacy. There's been a lot of comments like this, he has sensory issues so I know it's just a comment on that.
I know I need to talk to him about how I'm feeling but I don't want him to feel bad, so I'd rather suffer in silence. Although he knows I'm not ok right now so that doesn't help either. I can't answer anything but "I'm fine" because if I don't I'll crumble.
I just don't know how to be intimate without getting rejected or feeling rejected.
I also can't get my brain to quit telling me I'm disgusting. My husband is skinny and was visibly upset when he had gained in the past. He says he loves me as I am but I can't believe him, I think because I read into the rejection too much