I came back to my accommodation and feel like im the terrible sanatorium. So unease. Overthinking if i did a mistake

[Against_the_current]

Overthinking if i made a mistake to come here. My family helped me so much to come here while i was convinced they're harmful for me, feeling bad i believed a friend over my family. Please don't judge I'm already hard on myself. I want to go home to my clean apartment, neighbourhood and mom. I'm scared. My stomach issues are back. Hope it's just temporary stress. I have a course to attend this Saturday, sunday and monday, overthinking if i should have stayed longer. Can't get sensory used to my place

[CLB1125]

Ah girl it’s going to be ok. Take some deep breaths and try to relax a little bit. Try thinking about your course you have to take. You can call your mom can’t you? This is temporary and you will get through it. I’m here to talk to.

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you, i need it. My parents don't quite understand but maybe i should call her before taking action. First i should calm before taking action. I feel like I need a lot of support. Idk whether to go back home or if it's temporary and i will be better once i find a better accomodation and try to relax

[CLB1125 in reply to Against_the_current]

I would try to give yourself a little more time to try to settle in. It might not be as bad as you think while you are so anxious. Maybe calling your mom might make you more anxious.

[PuzzleArt]

You are continuing to bravely face your thoughts and feelings. I don't believe you made a mistake because of making a choice based on what you knew at the time. The choice resulted in a change, a new environment that appears to have a lot of distractions and sensory overload. But it would be impossible to make a perfect choice, unless you were psychic and knew the future of each choice. I am not psychic and do not follow, but I had a "friend* who told me once the world would end tomorrow. (That wasn't yesterday) She believed completely in her psychic abilitities. I think you already explained how there weren't clear choices, that you couldn't know exactly to the letter what to do. A lot of people know what that is. You should be complimented for making a decision ...not easy. You are doing what you can within human limits..on your way to a position of more confidence and getting to a point of operating outside of your "confort zone" We all have our comfort zones and they are not all harmful. I do hope you can create a new confort zone no matter what your environment is. You have the wisdom to get there! Meanwhile, if your anxiety gets too high, continue posting here and also continue looking for those you could talk to in person who are trustworthy.It doesn' t take me a lot of people for support, maybe at first, only one or two who speaks to hou with respect and appreciation for your unique gifts.

[Against_the_current in reply to PuzzleArt]

Thank you. Felt so calming and compassionate to hear this. It's really hard, anxiety is insane high. Can't eat anything at all, throwing up, considering going back to mom. I doubt myself and if i can make it. Wondering if i change my accommodation i could make myself feel better

[PuzzleArt in reply to Against_the_current]

I was in a Care Home for a month and couldn't eat the food...... I lost 15 pounds. I am trying to eat more now as bones showing (I am even thinner than I was as a pre-teen.) I am gaining very slowly.

[Against_the_current in reply to PuzzleArt]

Yeah, at such places the food and anxiety are so bad people actually lose weight. I had a friend who was hospitalised for anorexia and ended up skinnier. So i see it's not only here that the food and atmosphere are so terrible. Good job on your recovering journey

[SoporRose]

Once again, I feel that the people who have already responded have given you the best advice and support you could get. I'm just chiming in to add my continued support and confidence in you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you for being always here for me

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I just wish I could do more, that I knew the magic words to make things better. I wouldn't want to make everything TOO easy — I think you thrive on reasonable challenges — but I'd sure like to smooth your path a little.