Fighting

[mauv]

I have been medication resistent to antidepressants 2 yrs ago. I suffer from major depression and PTSD. When under stress my depression really flared up. This one has been bad since Mar. The worse part for me is battelling the negative thinking. I have problems focusing and concentrating also. I know it is the disease but it gets to be a struggle to hang on, but I know I will. I do things everyday to help myself and say positive scripture but nothing is helping for long. I am 78 and have had major depression since age 12. On antidepressants at age21. Does anyone feel that it is a struggle to hang on?

[012703060610]

You aren't alone. Every single day. I'm 44 with several autoimmune diseases that are very painful to live with. I cannot make a commitment to anything. I spend my time at Drs and doing what I can around the house and for my three little kiddos. Every day is painful, both physically and emotionally. Of course I wish things were different and I wish I had made some different choices in life....but I am where I am for the time being. Wondering if you need something a bit different than a simple anti depressant. There are so many different kinds of therapy now that could be beneficial. TMS and Ketamine being new top treatments. LDN is another off label treatment for anxiety and depression and is an add-on with little to no side effects. Since adding LDN to my anti depressant, I seem to be doing much better. I to suffer from PTSD and found that shifting to a PTSD counselor helped me a ton versus traditional CBT therapy. I haven't ever taken a break from therapy since college. We have the family gene for mental illness and I feel fortunate that I sought care even before I felt my life was spinning out of control. I am so sorry for your suffering. You certainly are not alone on this forum. It is a daily grind for most of us!

[mauv in reply to 012703060610]

What is LDN? Thank you for your reply. I have a problem Jugging myself for having the illness because it isolates me from having friendship accept on here.

[012703060610 in reply to mauv]

Same here. Also moved across the country right before getting very ill so we are truly left on our own. Making friendships as an adult can be very difficult. I find a lot of positivity on this site though to know I'm not alone and not certainly not crazy. LDN is short for Low Dose Naltrexone. Naltrexone in high doses is used for opioid and alcohol withdrawal. In 1-5mgs micro doses it helps block pain receptors and reduces inflammation. There are some links to inflammation and the brain, etc. I was very pleased to reduce my anti-depressant after starting LDN. Attaching an article in case it is interesting!

welltopiarx.com/compounding....

[Aiyoo in reply to 012703060610]

I don’t think I can get this in my country.

[012703060610]

I should add my other in end stage parkinsons also added LDN and has improved her pain.

[Aiyoo]

it is a Torture to hang on. But there is no other option. One moment at a time. Breathe.